Deep in the Act - Chapter 20

[Chapter 20]

At 5:15 p.m. on Thursday, the last patient was sent away. Fang Chi packed his things tiredly. Five minutes later, he opened the door of the consulting room with his leather bag in hand. Short hair, wearing a small gray British suit: “Doctor Fang,” he said with a trembling voice, “I’m sorry, I came here without authorization.”

They just met yesterday, more than an hour of treatment, aggressive inquiries and unreserved confession , Fang Chi said to Secretary Li: “You can get off work.”

“It’s okay,” Secretary Li turned out the registration book very professionally: “There are temporary patients, it’s okay for me to wait a little longer.”

“No,” Fang Chi opened the consultation room. Light, greeted Micro Motion: “He is my friend.”

Entering the room, Micro Motion was trembling all the time, following Fang Chi with his eyes, watching him put down his purse, take out documents and glasses case from the bag, take off his suit and hang it on the hanger Go up, turn your neck, and then look at him: “Mr. Gao, what’s the matter?”

“I…” Gao Zhun’s eyes flickered: “I’m fine, I just want to see you…” He twitched, thought about it, and finally said “Is your time free? Can we… change it to twice a week?”

Fang Chi stared at him silently, somewhat cautiously and playfully, Micro Motion panicked, afraid that he would be unhappy: “No, it’s okay , if not…”

“Is this time convenient for you every day?” Fang Chi interrupted him: “5:30 to 6:30.”

Micro Motion’s eyes widened, clumsily hiding the ecstasy in his heart: “It’s convenient for me!”

“Our treatment, I want to change it to once a day.” Fang Chi grabbed the notebook and the signature pen, and walked towards him with a smile: “Do you think it’s okay?”

Micro Motion didn’t need to answer at all. The reddish cheeks and tight lips are all answering Fang Chi, he can do it, he can’t wait for it: “Doctor Fang, you know, Lin Lin is not here, I am alone, I am very scared…”

He is rationalizing himself. Fang Chi nodded in the usual dependence: “I went back yesterday, how do you feel?”

Micro Motion took a deep breath: “I don’t feel like I’m alone anymore. I’m glad I can say it…” He repeatedly rubbed his fingers against the embroidery on the hem of his suit: “I thought before, if that incident makes If people find out, I will die, but now that you know, I feel like I am alive.”

When he said this, his whole body was burning hot, and the temperature almost burned Fang Chi, but Fang Chi Chi pretended to be indifferent: “Mr. Gao, let’s talk about your dream today.”

Hearing the word “dream”, Gao Zhun’s face froze for a moment. Of course, Fang Chi would not give him a chance to object: “Do you have a dream?”

Severe sleep problems, because of dreams, last night you called me because of nightmares, I want to know about those dreams.”

“That’s the thing…” Micro Motion wanted to be vague.

Fang Chi took off his pen cap: “Tell me the details.”

Gao Zhun showed a hurt expression again: “He took off my pants and rubbed me with his hardened penis…he entered me!

” Is the reality different?”

Gao Zhun obviously didn’t expect him to ask this, and after a brief moment of astonishment, he seemed to resign himself to his fate: “Sometimes it’s not in the car…”

“Where is that?”

“In…” Micro Motion He clenched his fist and then released it; “On the bed.”

Even Fang Chi couldn’t help but be surprised: “You and him, on the bed?”

Micro Zhun looked at him pleadingly: “I lie on the bed as if I was drunk, I have no energy , he was standing opposite, and I saw… he was not wearing anything, his bottom was raised up high, sticking to his belly, a man with an erection.”

Fang Chi felt that he was weird, so he subconsciously covered his crotch with a notebook, Maybe he didn’t notice his strangeness, and then said: “The room is very dark, but there are mirrors on all sides. I saw him climb up in the mirror, then pressed me down, and whispered in my ear…”

“What did he say?”

” He said…” Micro Motion began to tremble, “He said he wanted to prostitute me.”

Unknowingly, Fang Chi stopped the pen in his hand, and listened to his narration with all his heart: “He plays with me like a toy, I was tossed by him like a bitch, it still hurts, he is very thick and big , I can’t stand him at all…”

“What’s your reaction?”

“I’m calling,” Micro Motion blushed, “Because I’m in the room, I’m calling out regardless, it’s very shameless!”

“You climaxed Is it?”

Gao Zhun nodded pitifully: “He keeps teasing me, and I can’t control it.”

Fang Chi felt a fire in his crotch, and a fire in his heart, the bottom one was desire, and the top one was anger. “Besides him, have you ever dreamed about anyone else?” He added sharply: “Besides me.”

Gao Zhun obviously hesitated, and then said: “No.”

Fang Chi finally found an outlet for the fire in his heart, He tapped his pen on the recording paper and said sternly, “You think I can’t see that you’re lying?”

Micro Motion disarmed, leaned forward, and anxiously argued, “Only once!

” Zhun gave in, but his anger grew even stronger: “Who is it?”

“Yes…” Gao Zhun still wanted to hide it, but Fang Chi told him with his expression that he couldn’t hide it, so Gao Zhun said, “It’s Justin.

” Chizao guessed the name: “Why him?”

“Because he scares me,” Micro Motion said in a flashback-like state: “There was an auction in Macau before, I brought him, and he drank too much at the dinner Yes, when I went back to the room, he pushed me against the hotel corridor… He seemed to have an erection, I’m not sure, maybe it was a mobile phone…”

“Is there such a thing?”

“There is another expressionist exhibition, there is a The by-work is to show the…sex between the same sex,” Micro Motion secretly observed Fang Chi’s expression: “When I was studying the work with him, he asked me if I had watched “A Night Intoxicated by Spring Breeze”, I had, but I Say no.”

“What is “A Night Intoxicated by the Spring Breeze”?” Fang Chi asked.

“A movie about gay men.” Micro Motion tightened his fingers uneasily: “There is a scene in the bathroom, very… that.”

Fang Chi frowned: “Why do you watch this kind of movie?”

“I like Lou Ye, I’ve seen all of his movies.” Fearing that Fang Chi would misunderstand, Micro Motion explained: “Many people in our industry like him, and his shots are very beautiful.”

Fang Chi didn’t want to get entangled in these details: “Tell me You and Justin’s dream.”

Micro Motion was unwilling to say, and resisted with silence, Fang Chi waited for a while, and glanced at his watch: “Why don’t you come here first today.”

He pretended to be over, Micro Motion immediately said : “Cézanne has a painting called “Rape”, have you seen it?”

It is a very visually impactful painting, the forest in the evening, the blue and purple rocks, the pale woman is grabbed by the waist by the red man It just so happened that Fang Chi had seen it, in a cognitive psychology class, but he said no: “Describe it.

” Forcing her, that’s how Justin forced me in the dream.” He no longer knew what kind of expression he used to face Fang Chi, covering his mouth and nose in embarrassment: “I resisted, really, but he didn’t let me go, I desperately It’s useless…”

Fang Chi had a full erection, he hated his own sexual desire, and was even more annoyed by this unprofessional stress response, but in the end, he vented his anger on Micro Motion: “You have pleasure, don’t you ”

“I…” Micro Motion wanted to refute, but had nothing to say.

“There is pleasure in the dream, and the body may also respond.” Fang Chi made a movement, shaking his head, expressing a negative evaluation: “Maybe you wake up and find that you have a wet dream.”

“No!” Micro Motion stood up excitedly , with red eyes, anxiously confessed to Fang Chi: “It’s definitely not with him!”

Fang Chi looked at him provocatively: “Then who is it with?”

Gao

Zhunkong opened his mouth, twitched his eyelashes, and sat down slumped. Fang Chi knew him too well, as long as he was a little gentler to him, he would tell the whole story: “Tell me, who is it with?”

Close your eyes: “With you…” “Is that the one time?” Fang Chi was referring to the time he turned into a woman in his dream, but Gao

Zhun

said stupidly, “Every time.”

He slid up and down and landed on the ground with a ding, Fang Chi’s voice trembled a little: “Many times?”

Micro Motion grabbed the fabric of his trousers in panic: “I’m sorry…” He kept repeating these three words: “I’m sorry I messed up.” I’m dirty with you, I’m shameless, I’m sick!”

Fang Chi didn’t react a little: “I’m like them too…forcing you?”

“No,” Micro Motion lowered his head deeply: “With you When we were together, I was voluntary.”

His heart began to beat wildly, and Fang Chi could no longer maintain the image of a doctor: “What is voluntary and not voluntary…”

“It’s true,” Gao Zhun was so weak that he almost cried: ” In my dream, I felt something coming in from behind, it was hot and rubbed violently, I pushed and kicked with my hands, and when I saw your face, I just…”

Fang Chi inhaled quickly, and pressed his palms hard On the recording paper: “Continue, I want to hear.”

Micro Motion was immersed in his own world, and murmured self-blamingly: “At first I couldn’t believe it was you, I touched your face, lightly… you hugged hard Hold me, gasp on me, I feel less pain, my legs unconsciously… open more, this is a dream, I know, so I hug you and cry on your shoulder.”

“Why cry ?” Fang Chi was restless, and it was difficult for him to speak.

“Because you’re finally here,” Gao Zhun raised his head, only his lips were red on his pale face, “Come to save me.”

Fang Chi dumbfounded and denied in a panic: “That’s not me, it’s just my face.”

“The body is too .”

You.” Gao Zhun said stubbornly.

Fang Chi thought it was funny: “How do you know?”

Gao Zhun whispered, “I know.”

Fang Chi remembered that Gao Zhun had said that he had accurate human body analysis ability, so in those dreams, he was indeed naked The body making love with him: “Did I make you cum?”

Micro Motion wrung his hands together, almost breaking: “Wake up, the sheets are wet.”

Fang Chi comforted him: “It’s not your fault, the dream is Subconscious, you can’t control it.”

Micro Motion shook his head with tears in his eyes: “Sometimes…” He shrugged his shoulders: “In order to fall asleep, I would imagine you lying next to me, or pressing on me, I imagined You touch me and talk to me, just like the exercises we did,” he trembled slightly: “I’m really scared, I will imagine that we have sex, crazy sex, like dying together…”

Fang Chi swallowed his saliva : “What’s it like when you’re with me?

” I listen to you, my body is wet, especially between my legs…”

Fang Chi couldn’t take it anymore, and he would go crazy if he listened to it again: “What about Zuo Linlin?” He changed the subject: ” I mean, after that incident, did you…”

“No,” Micro Motion used three “no”s in a row: “I can’t, I can’t do it, I can’t get hard.”

Fang Chi asked again: ” Apart from dreaming, have you ever found other men?”

Gao Zhun stared at him in disbelief, Fang Chi said: “That’s right, some rape victims will have promiscuity, which is a complication of PTSD and also in the treatment category It’s not the first time

for

Micro Motion to hear PTSD, he knows what it means: “Have you already diagnosed it? I have post-traumatic stress disorder?

” The swollen lower body calmed down: “You didn’t call the police afterwards, did you?”

Micro Motion said no, Fang Chi frowned: “Have you ever thought about how he got in when your home park is so tight? And you didn’t keep the monitoring and semen, these important evidences.”

Listen to him say “semen” , Micro Motion’s face changed in humiliation, but Fang

Chi

said something that scares him even more: “Have you been tested for HIV?

”

He took a deep breath: “This weekend, no, tomorrow, I will accompany you.” He stood up: “Come here first.” He didn’t put down the paper and pen, but covered his crotch: “I’m going to the bathroom.”

Micro Motion sat on the chair and waited blankly. After waiting for a long time, Fang Chi didn’t come back. His mind was full of HIV. He accidentally glanced at the bathroom, and suddenly thought of something, his face turned red.