Deluge - Chapter 18

[Chapter 18]

Is it romantic to drive out of the city for two hours late at night, and then walk on the mountain road for another hour to watch the stars on the uninhabited top of the mountain?

Xu Juan thought it was quite romantic.

But if he just wants to play romance with Pei Yu, there are many easier and more perfect solutions that can achieve similar results, make him happy, and move Pei Yu, so he doesn’t have to spend a lot of time in the wilderness.

He was just in a bad mood and wanted to relax and find someone to accompany him by the way.

“Do you still want to go forward?”

“Well, the front view is good.”

Xu Juan took Pei Yu’s hand and climbed to the top of the mountain step by step. This is the north of Hongcheng, and it is positioned as a forest park, but this route is very biased and is no longer in the park. Pei Yu didn’t recognize the way, and followed Xu Juan forward blankly.

Stepping on the tail of August, the hottest season in Hongcheng is coming to an end.

Compared with the city full of neon lights, the summer night here is more alive, even the tree shadows are alive, fighting with the swaying mountain wind.

Pei Yu tripped over a protruding branch, and his sleepiness was swept away. Xu Juan quickly grabbed him: “Be careful.”

“Well.” Pei Yu leaned on Xu Juan’s side and walked with him to the end of the mountain road.

What you see in front is a huge stone platform, obviously there are traces of artificial excavation, but this hill has not been fully developed, it seems that it has been developed halfway, and I don’t know why it was abandoned. Weed Garden.

Those wild grasses with thick stems and leaves emerged from the cracks in the stone. When they walked over the weeds and walked onto the stone platform, their shoes and trousers were covered with a layer of dew, and the air was full of moist soil and the fragrance of grass.

“It’s here.” Xu Juan turned off the light on his mobile phone and looked up from the dark mountain top, “Have you seen the stars? Not one or two, but the sky full of stars, Pei Yu.”

Xu Juan turned his head and smiled at Pei Yu: “I used to come here when I was in a bad mood. But I rarely have a bad mood, so… Actually, I don’t come here often, and I haven’t brought anyone here. It’s a bit special, but I didn’t mean to hide it from others, because I never had the opportunity to share it, and there was no one to share it with.”

Pei Yu didn’t look at the stars, just looked at him: “Why is this place special? ”

It’s a long story.” Xu Juan suddenly sat down on the ground, stretched out his hand and tugged at Pei Yu’s trousers, Pei Yu had to sit with him and listen to him say, “I used to be very obedient and hardworking, I’ll tell you this paragraph.” Has it passed? But I didn’t say that, when I grew up, I would not study hard.”

“…”

“On my 20th birthday, my mother held a grand coming-of-age ceremony for me and invited many relatives and friends. Friends and celebrities, when it was time to blow out the candles and make a wish, everyone in the room looked at me. They waited for me to make a solemn birthday wish, but I thought about it for a long time and didn’t know what I wanted. I learned so much , almost anything, but when I think about the future, none of them are the direction I look forward to. I don’t know why I study them so hard every day. Because my eldest brother grew up like this, he is very successful , my sister is the same, she is also very successful, so I want to learn from them and become like them?”

Xu Juan put his hands behind him and looked up at the vast starry sky.

“At that time, I thought, why can’t I be myself? I don’t listen to other people’s arrangements and bravely go my own way.” Xu Juan smiled slightly, “As soon as this idea came up, I was tempted. After the banquet that day, I opened the With the first car in my life, I drove aimlessly outside the city and came here by accident. Just like now, I was lying on the stone platform, looking at the stars above my head, and thinking about it for a night. ”

What did you think of?”

Pei Yu was a good listener, watching him intently and patiently.

Xu Juan smiled again: “I was only twenty that year, I learned a lot, but I really don’t know much. I haven’t left the society yet. What big reason can I come up with? Actually, I don’t remember exactly how I felt at the time, but I think back now. When I got up, I suspected that I might have been driven crazy by the schedule arranged by my mother. I wanted to indulge, but I was too embarrassed to indulge directly, so I found a high-sounding reason for myself, using the direction of life as an excuse to fool my family while fooling me. Myself, and then… turned my original trajectory, and now it turns around and doesn’t know where it’s going.”

“…” Xu Juan said something to complain, but his expression didn’t look like it. Complaining, Pei Yu couldn’t be sure of his thoughts, “So you’re in a bad mood today, is it because of this? What happened?”

“It’s nothing.” Xu Juan said, “I was taught a lesson by my sister at night, and she took care of me. Mom sent a message, let me settle down sooner, get married and have children.”

Pei Yu was stunned, holding his hand tightly.

Xu Juan said: “Don’t be afraid, they are just talking and beating me. Maybe in my mother’s eyes, my son is very ignorant, and the only contribution he can make to the family is to inherit the family.

” I don’t know how to do it.”

“…”

Maybe it’s because the lover’s eyes are Xi Shi, and Pei Yu always says hello to him seriously, Xu Juan leaned closer, and lay lazily on Pei Yu’s lap.

He was indeed in a bad mood by Xu Qingguang today, but let him say what he cares about, is he forced to marry? seems not.

As he himself said, he is rarely in a bad mood, because he can see through and is almost invulnerable. But he is not an eminent monk, and he hasn’t seen through the world. Today, Xu Qingguang said a few words. Nothing else matters. The one that pricked his nerves the most was the sentence “Run three times.”

The oppression of time is silent, but it does not stop for a moment.

It is hard for Xu Juan to imagine his life after the age of 30 or 40. Is he still playing in the world? It doesn’t seem to be bad, but it doesn’t seem to be good either.

He was in a bad mood occasionally, and the pain was never there.

But the pain is intense, precise, and has a source to follow. His “bad mood” seems to be a hidden loss and daze that has been accumulated over the years. Usually, he is not aware of it, but occasionally encounters something that makes him uncomfortable. It will quietly surface, let him realize: it turns out that I am not a happy person.

– Am I not happy?

If I am not happy, how many people in the world dare to say that they are happy?

Xu Juan can usually comfort himself with this idea. He doesn’t need others to comfort him. He didn’t want to say so much to Pei Yu tonight, but Pei Yu looked at him with such gentle eyes, and he couldn’t help but commit acting sickness. .

The performative personality speaks to him.

“I’m talking nonsense, just stay with me.” Xu Juan reached out to Pei Yu’s neck, pulled him down and kissed him.

“The stars are so beautiful.” He sighed softly, “Sometimes I think the starry sky is the most incredible scenery, distant, romantic, and eternal. If I can, I want to sleep here, and I can see the vast Milky Way every day when I open my eyes.”

“You Have you been having a bad time recently?” Pei Yu was more sensitive than he thought, and suddenly said, “I think you seem to have deep thoughts related to what you just said?”

Xu Juan touched his nose: “Maybe, I can’t tell.”

“…”

Pei Yu let him rest on his legs, put his fingers in his hair, and gently pressed him a few times: “Life is bound to be unhappy, don’t be unhappy.”

“Are you also unhappy? , Teacher Pei?” Xu Juan was pressed very comfortably, and couldn’t help yawning, feeling a little sleepy.

Pei Yu said: “Yes, there are a lot of things that I don’t like.”

“For example?”

“I published a book this year.” Pei Yu said, “It is about the study of history. I wrote this book from the beginning of my research, then graduated and worked, and continued to enrich the content. After several years of writing, finally a publishing house was willing to help I published it, but before the listing, the editor in charge said that Ming History has been thoroughly studied over and over again. There are too many books on the market, and I am not a senior scholar in this field. If we want to sell well, we must have gimmicks.”

“What gimmicks?”

“She asked me to take a set of photos and printed them on the book cover. She also asked me to open a Weibo account and post selfies when I had nothing to do.”

Xu Juan: “…”

Ganqing is a beautiful writer’s marketing strategy that has been rotten, beautiful male writers Also got a head start?

But it is true that in the era of the fan economy, talented people do not necessarily have to rely on their faces to eat, but if they grow up to be like Pei Yu, showing their faces first can attract a lot of attention, which is a shortcut.

But he is engaged in academics, what is the use of taking such shortcuts? Does it make sense to attract small fans who look at the face to buy books and become Internet celebrities?

“I refused.” Pei Yu said, “But the contract has been signed, and I can’t change the family. Later, my uncle came forward to help me solve the problem, and finally published the book according to my ideas, without posting photos.

” What happened later?”

“Later—” Pei Yu sneered, “Sure enough, it didn’t sell well, and few people saw it. At that time, I was very shocked, because I did put a lot of effort into it, but then I figured out that it might be me. It’s too boring to write, I often feel that I am a very boring person, and the same is true when doing scholarship. The things I am obsessed with are colorful in my heart, but I can’t express them well.”

“… ”

Xu Juan thought to himself, isn’t this the exact opposite of him? He has nothing in his heart, and is bells and whistles.

But he really didn’t expect that Pei Yu would have such troubles.

When Tang Sisi sent Pei Yu’s resume to him, he seemed to have seen Pei Yu’s research works on the history of the Ming Dynasty, but no matter what these things were or what his reputation in the industry was, he didn’t understand anyway. Who would have thought there was such a story behind it?

But he can understand.

Xu Juan sighed a little: “You are unsatisfactory. Compared with you, I can only make a fuss about it. How can I be unsatisfactory…”

Pei Yu said: “You can’t say that, just like a person drinking water, you know how cold and warm you are. How can others know if you are sick?”

He cupped Xu Juan’s face with both hands, bowed his head and kissed him.

It was a very gentle kiss, a comfort, something Xu Juan had never experienced before.

A rule maker who is accustomed to being high above and playing with others in the palm of his hand, never reveals his weakness.

Therefore, Xu Juan refused to speak too thoroughly, but he suddenly felt that he was caught by Pei Yu.

Pei Yu was obviously a fool, but at this moment, he showed a bit of a wise and foolish temperament, and he grabbed his throat with his backhand.

Xu Juan’s rhetoric stopped, he stayed there for a few seconds, and heard Pei Yu say, “Other people don’t know you, can I understand? You let me know more, Xu Juan.”

“Okay.” Xu Juan caught Holding Pei Yu’s hand, he took the opportunity to say, “In order to exchange feelings more conveniently, let’s live together, Mr. Pei!”

“…Why are you so full of these things?”

“Don’t you want to?” Xu Juan took his hand Putting it on his lips, he kissed his ring finger, and deliberately said, “Forget it if you don’t want to, and treat me as if I didn’t say it.”

“You’re all done!” Pei Yu pulled out his hand, lowered his head and bit him fiercely.

[End of This Chapter]