Deluge - Chapter 34

[Chapter 34]

Being called by a scumbag, he came and lingered, and he was happy. Except for Li Mengzhou, I am afraid there is no other person.

It just so happened that he had just finished shooting today’s commercial and hadn’t left Hongcheng. Xu Juan called him back from the airport with a WeChat message. He explained a few words to the agent, but the agent didn’t stop him when he was angry.

Then he dressed himself up and took a taxi to find Xu Juan.

They meet at a coffee shop.

This coffee shop is opened by Guo Shao, and the coffee is quite authentic, but the main business is not selling coffee. To be precise, it is a small private club that is only open to VIP members.

When Xu Juan got a membership card, Guo Shao swindled 2 million.

But aside from its murderous cost-effectiveness, the environment here is indeed good, safe and full of sentiment, and it is the best place for celebrities to have sex.

Xu Juan came before Li Mengzhou. It is impossible for the waiter to not know him if he didn’t know anyone. As soon as he entered the door, he was asked to open a room? Or just sit in the hall for a while.

The decoration of the hall is similar to that of an ordinary coffee shop, and the atmosphere of literary petty bourgeoisie is permeated everywhere.

But for the sake of confidentiality and anti-candid photography, there are no windows on all sides, and the walls are filled with small lamps with unique shapes, which create a false sense of warmth under the contrast of warm yellow lights.

–false.

This is Xu Juan’s feeling.

He is used to the days of being a drunken fan of money, and he knows very well how versatile money is. As long as the money is spent in place, whatever you want to feel, the person who receives the money can arrange it properly for you.

If the arrangement is not good, it means that the money is too little. If 1 million is not enough, 10 million is needed, and 10 million is not enough. If you are willing to add a zero, you can get better service.

But no matter how many zeros are added, a false one is a false one.

Can a hidden club whose business orientation is an affair, with a warmer decoration, become a “home”?

Xu Juan’s stomach was full of fire. It had been an hour, but it still didn’t go away.

When he thought that Pei Yu was back at school now, he was intimately instructing the girl named Tingting, and he might be teaching others while thinking proudly: Xu Juan died of anger? …he was really pissed off.

How could Pei Yu be so extreme?

Knowing that he will be jealous and unhappy, he still has to deliberately pinch him.

Xu Juan even believes that Pei Yu is “training” him, just like some people keep cats and dogs, when the kitten and puppy are disobedient and cause trouble, the owner slaps it lightly and frightens it, and it will scare it. You know, you can’t do this next time, or you will be punished.

Xu Juan has a rich imagination, and when he thinks of this, his brain almost explodes.

He put on a cold face that was frozen to the North Pole, and the waiter was trembling all the way and led him into the single room: “Sir…”

“You go out.” Xu Juan turned on the light and drove the waiter away.

This is a suite.

The living room is decorated like a home theater, with sofas, big screens, and ambiguous lights. Going deeper, there is a door inside, and you can open it to the bedroom.

Xu Juan sat down on the sofa and randomly selected a movie to start playing.

In fact, asking Li Mengzhou was impulsive. He knew that it was wrong to do so. Even if he was angry with Pei Yu, he should not ask Li Mengzhou, because he really has no money now. Called, then what? Whore?

Xu Juan was shown by his own operation.

He found that he was becoming less and less decent. In the past, although he was a scumbag, he was calm most of the time, and could maintain a personable demeanor in front of anyone. Even if his essence was a waste vase, he was still a charming vase.

But now, what kind of demeanor does he have? He is an emotionally unstable neuropathy. He has failed in all aspects of career, family, love, etc., which is why he is flammable and explosive.

Xu Juan lowered his head and slowly covered his eyes.

His fire suddenly went out, and he was not angry anymore.

He admitted that it was not Pei Yu’s fault, and that his grievance was not given by Pei Yu, but he pushed the blame and became angry with Pei Yu, wasn’t it because Pei Yu was good to him?

Pei Yu was so good to him, once he took back one or two percent, he felt that he had suffered a great grievance, and the person who had been paying became a sinner.

-Why do you live like this?

Xu Juan couldn’t figure it out. Before August this year, his life was extremely smooth, and it was normal to be unhappy occasionally. After all, no one could be happy every day, 365 days a year.

But since he met Pei Yu in early August, everything has been messed up. He has been impulsive again and again and has done so many things that he shouldn’t do, so that he has forced himself into such a situation.

“What’s wrong with me?” Xu Juan suddenly felt as if he had become a rootless duckweed, being swept away by a huge torrent, unable to return to the stability of the past, and did not know where the end was, where should he settle?

When he came out of the birthday party obviously, he still had blood and determination in his heart. At that moment, he became emotional and felt that he could grasp career and love with both hands.

But life is not an inspirational TV series. When his prodigal son turns back, he can flash three or five years in a single scene. When he reappears, he will become a successful person.

The reality was that it had only been a day, and the fire that had tormented him had just started to burn, and he couldn’t hold back any longer.

But this is just the beginning, the fire will get stronger and stronger, but he doesn’t know if he is real gold, can he withstand the tempering?

What if he is not the protagonist of this TV series, but just a cannon fodder acting as a negative teaching material?

Xu Juan sat there dumbfounded, and after an unknown time, Li Mengzhou arrived.

When Li Mengzhou came in, Xu Juan was still in a daze. His appearance is very rare, Li Mengzhou was stunned for a moment, and whispered: “Brother?”

Xu Juan recovered: “Well, you sit.”

“…”

He seemed a little tired and in a bad mood. Li Mengzhou originally thought that he suddenly called himself to come, there should be a reason, and now I can probably guess a few points, maybe it is to relieve pressure or vent.

Li Mengzhou didn’t mind being used as a tool to vent, on the contrary, he was a little happy.

Because he didn’t expect Xu Juan to love him for a long time, and although Xu Juan didn’t take him seriously, he wouldn’t hurt him – mental damage didn’t count.

The so-called mental harm is all subjective feelings. As long as he doesn’t care, can it still be considered harm?

Li Mengzhou became happy on his own, sat down obediently, and glanced at Xu Juan with his eyes.

“Brother, do you have anything to do with me?” He got close, and put his body on Xu Juan’s arm. Seeing that Xu Juan didn’t mean to refuse, he hugged him directly.

Xu Juan turned his head slightly and looked at him sideways.

Xu Juan’s eyes are very good-looking, and it may not be very good to pick them out individually, but the combination of facial features has a unique temperament, which makes people know that he is ruthless and unrighteous, and they will still be attracted to him.

Li Mengzhou thought about it before, what do I like about him?

Maybe it’s because he’s used to looking up, people who are high and high have their own halo, and Xu Juan is so good-looking, Li Mengzhou will be moved when he sees him, as for why his heart is moved – his heart is chaotic, his mind is dizzy, how can he imagine it? reason?

“Aren’t you happy? Did you encounter trouble?” Li Mengzhou hugged him tighter under Xu Juan’s gaze.

He is very good, so good that he has no edges and corners, abandons his personality, and listens to Xu Juan.

But Xu Juan said, “Sorry, I regret looking for you now.”

“…Oh.” Li Mengzhou didn’t respond, buried his face in Xu Juan’s arms, and said in a muffled voice, “Then will you let me go?”

Xu Juan pulled him out of his arms, feeling unbelievable in his heart: “Are you a clay figurine? You don’t have any temper?”

“I’m not.” Li Mengzhou lowered his head and smiled shyly, “I’m only mentally prepared. I’m here.”

“What kind of mental preparation?”

“Well, it’s just… I thought about it in advance. You suddenly came to me, maybe because you were not happy. Since you are not happy, how could you give me a smile? So it doesn’t matter, beat me and scold me. I’m fine, I’m not afraid.”

Xu Juan sneered: “Have I hit you?”

“No, you’re not that kind of person.” Li Mengzhou even praised him, as if he was kind, “You won’t do it. It ‘s such a rude thing.”

“…”

Xu Juan was speechless, he found that he didn’t know Li Mengzhou very well, maybe Li Mengzhou didn’t do it for love, but because he had a brain problem.

“Are you happy?” Xu Juan suddenly said without going to the village or the store, “How are you doing recently?”

Li Mengzhou was stunned, unable to believe that he suddenly cared about himself. Juan never cared about him: “It’s okay, okay, what do you mean, brother?”

“In every aspect, are you having a good time?”

“…”

Li Mengzhou thought for a while: “Happy… It ‘s going well.”

“Really?” Xu Juan didn’t quite believe it.

Li Mengzhou said: “I just received a drama, a big IP and a big production, and the pay is very high. Although I was scolded on the hot search after the official announcement, but I don’t care, I just scold me, what can they do to me? Are you hitting me with the internet cable?”

Xu Juan looked at him again in disbelief.

Li Mengzhou was a little embarrassed: “I used to care, when I just debuted and there was no topic, my agent used negative news to stir up topics for me. At that time, I was scolded for not daring to go online, and I couldn’t sleep well at night, I don’t understand why Obviously they are strangers, but they have so much malice towards me, why can’t they be nicer to me? And the manager, I told him, I don’t want to be black and red, I’m very uncomfortable, can you please not give it to me? I marketed this line. He said I was ignorant, and I hid and cried a few times.”

“…”

“At the time, I thought that my agent was not my own, he didn’t care about my mood, I was just his hand. At first, I felt chilled because he treated me too badly. Later, I thought about it, whether it is netizens, fans, or agents, he is him, I am me, why does he have to be right? How am I? Even fans who express affection to me every day will not love me unconditionally, because I can give them happiness, so they support me, that’s all, the essence is an exchange relationship, spending money to buy happiness. If I make them unhappy, they won’t love me anymore. The same goes for the agent, since he doesn’t care about me, I don’t care about him, like I ran out of the airport just now, he didn’t agree, but why can he bear with me Willful? Because I can make money for him, it’s that simple, so—”

“So it’s still the same sentence, he is him, I am me, whether he likes me or hates me, it’s all his business, it has something to do with me I only care about what I get.” Li Mengzhou looked at Xu Juan quietly, “You too, brother, you can hate me, just let me like you unilaterally, anyway, liking others is essentially a kind of self-satisfaction.”

Xu Juan: “…”

What kind of weird theory is this?

Xu Juan was shocked.

He originally asked Li Mengzhou if he was having a good time because he was in a panic and wanted to chat with someone casually.

In fact, he wanted to hear Li Mengzhou say, “I’m not happy either” or “life is like this, everyone is unhappy”, but Li Mengzhou is actually… It’s true, it seems to be better than him.

Xu Juan was silent for a while.

He suddenly felt a little ironic. He used to claim to be at the top of the food chain, and his noble and arrogant eyes swept down to see that everyone was pitiful.

Only now did I realize that the poorest of him, no one had a better life than him. He was the one struggling in the quagmire, with a bright face and a rotten heart. He didn’t know where he was going to be tomorrow, even begging for food under the overpass. better than.

Also, Li Mengzhou said, “Like others is also a kind of self-satisfaction”?

No wonder Li Mengzhou is so willing to go out. He thinks he has no self-esteem and is cheap, but in fact, people don’t care at all. He treats Li Mengzhou as a tool person, and Li Mengzhou also regards him as a tool person. He is also a tool person. He uses different methods to get what he needs. Who is more noble than the other?

No one can always give unconditionally for another without expecting anything in return.

Everyone is an independent individual. Human nature is “selfish”, and the essence is not all to make oneself happy.

So, what about Pei Yu?

Xu Juan inevitably thinks of Pei Yu.

What is Pei Yu doing now? Do you get along well with that girl?

If she could also make Pei Yu happy, wouldn’t Pei Yu need him so much?

Others don’t understand, how can he understand? The relationship itself is a phased and time-limited product. It may end early, or it may be replaced by another relationship. Everyone relies on their own lungs to breathe and will not leave anyone. Just out of breath.

Xu Juan was completely in a negative mood.

But thinking about it like this, he felt a little better. He felt that he had nothing, including Pei Yu. It made him feel very relaxed because he didn’t have to maintain anything.

But it’s just thinking, he knows that, at least now, Pei Yu still likes him.

This kind of love may last for a long time, until the day Pei Yu can see his true face completely, and then Pei Yu will be disappointed, sad, and angry – “So you turned out to be such a person, I was really blind at the beginning, how could it be? Fancy you?”

Xu Juan fantasized about that scene, and felt relieved like a self-abuse.

He suddenly stood up from the sofa and said goodbye to Li Mengzhou.

Li Mengzhou looked at him blankly: “Are you going, brother?”

“Well.” Xu Juan paused, “See you next time, please come over here.”

“…” Li Mengzhou smiled, “No trouble, if you need anything, you can come to me, I’m willing to do any ‘exchange’ with you.”

Xu Juan nodded, turned to go out, and left the coffee shop.

…

he went home.

Back to Pei Yu’s house.

Xu Juan didn’t think that he was stimulated, and wanted to break the jar again.

He thought about it seriously, it was right to do so, Pei Yu was good to him, willing to coax him, support him, and love him wholeheartedly, but he would not even tell Pei Yu the truth, he was too inhuman.

——Now there is only one person who is good to him, Pei Yu, why doesn’t he understand gratitude?

He should at least be frank and give Pei Yu the right to know the truth.

In this way, Pei Yu will be deceived for a few days less, and he will not hate him too deeply in the future.

Xu Juan let out a light breath.

He took a taxi back, got out of the car, and suddenly found that it was raining outside.

The autumn rain after dusk was filled with a bleak atmosphere.

In the sound of the rain, everything in the world is quiet. Autumn is the season of harvest and the season of withering.

Standing at the gate of the community, Xu Juan looked up at the sky, and an indescribable feeling suddenly appeared in his heart.

In the past, when he studied calligraphy and painting with Duan Xiyuan, Duan Xiyuan often criticized him, saying that he had no artistic feelings and was an elm head who could only draw gourds and gourds.

Although Xu Juan didn’t talk back to Master, he was dismissive of it in his heart.

At that time, he didn’t know what “artistic feeling” was, but now he suddenly understands a little bit.

Perhaps at this moment, standing in the rain curtain, he suddenly had the urge to paint, or to write something with a pen, to express the myriad thoughts in his heart that even he could not understand.

At this moment, the rain on his head suddenly stopped.

Xu Juan watched helplessly as it was still raining a meter away, stunned slightly, looked up, and saw a red umbrella on his head.

Pei Yu didn’t know when he came back and stood behind him with an umbrella: “Why are you in a daze? Why don’t you go in?”

“…” Xu Juan looked at Pei Yu, “Mr. Pei, I have something to tell you. ”

I have something to say.”

“No, just say it here, I guess you don’t want me to go in after you hear it.”

Pei Yu was stunned: “What do you want to say?”

Xu Juan lowered her head and avoided it. Pei Yu’s eyes: “I want to confess to you, in fact, I have been lying to you.”

[End of This Chapter]