Deluge - Chapter 36

[Chapter 36]

Many years ago, when Xu Juan was about ten years old, he was beaten by Xu Jiren.

He vaguely remembered that it was because he was mischievous and got into trouble and broke a precious vase, which was Xu Jiren’s love and had a unique value.

Xu Juan has been spoiled since he was a child, and is unwilling to admit his mistakes after he gets into trouble.

In that year, Xu Juan had just started to live a “hard life” and was not used to being “oppressed”.

He is very tired of studying every day, and he feels wronged when he is tired, but he is different from other children since he was a child. He knows what is good and what is bad. The so-called elite education arranged by his parents for him can be accepted in his heart, so he will work hard Go to school, and he looks down on the little kids who don’t understand anything (such as Hou Shijie, who grew up with him), and thinks he is more mature than those “little kids”.

Because of this, whenever he is tired and wronged, his self-esteem does not allow him to put down his face and admit with his own mouth, “I don’t want to learn! I want to play with the little kid!”, but he panicked, not at all. Really mature, so I use the topic to play, seize this matter and make a lot of trouble.

Obviously Xu Jiren only beat him a few times symbolically, but it wasn’t serious, but he cried so hard that he didn’t want to admit his mistake.

He Xiangzi felt sorry for her son – at that time Xu Juan was a good baby, very favored by the elders, unlike now, his mother has long given up hope for him.

He Xiangzi got a headache from his crying, indiscriminately, and accused Xu Jiren in turn, she said, “If it’s bad, it’s bad, what can be more important than your son? Why are you angry with him? No matter how ignorant he is, he is still your own son. Can you stop him?”

Xu Jiren couldn’t quarrel with his wife, mainly because he didn’t want to make a fuss at home because of this trivial matter, so he gave up.

Xiao Xu Juan won a big victory, and since then learned to be arrogant and arrogant.

To be precise, it is a stinky problem of “I dare to jump on your bottom line repeatedly because you love me and need me.”

This is not necessarily Xu Juan’s “active shortcomings”, but it is indeed the “passive skills” he carries.

Human character is shaped by a certain growth environment over time. Over the years, Xu Juan has changed a lot, but it seems that he has never changed. He is smart and understands everything, but he is confused. error.

How to say something? When you are complacent and think that you are extraordinary and can play around in life, life can play you to death as long as you quietly turn a corner.

Xu Juan now hit a curve.

There is a fork in front of you, the open door faces the empty corridor, it is quiet outside, you can faintly hear the sound of the elevator running, and then there are footsteps approaching, it seems that the neighbor is coming back.

Xu Juan listened for a moment, then looked up at Pei Yu in a daze.

Pei Yu is not his father, and he won’t get used to his stinky problems. He can’t use “Although I’m naughty and I smash your beloved vase and refuse to apologize, I’m your own son” to ask Pei Yu to forgive him.

In fact, he didn’t want to force Pei Yu to dump him, as Pei Yu guessed, but he didn’t think about it, because he didn’t think he would be forgiven at all, so isn’t the breakup an inevitable result?

But Pei Yu stood in the door and asked him if he wanted to go.

Xu Juan wanted to dig out a bit of reluctance in the face that pretended to be indifferent, but also felt that his mentality was really despicable.

He bowed his head and smiled, raised his foot and stepped out of the threshold.

Just after taking a step out, when he was about to turn around and say something, the door closed in front of him—with a loud bang, Pei Yu shut him out.

“…” The tip of

Xu Juan’s nose was pressed against the door panel, almost being photographed in the face.

Being so decisive and quick, he didn’t even have a chance to say a word, Pei Yu was more decisive than he thought.

It should be, Xu Juan thought, there is nothing wrong.

He stood outside the door and let it go for a while, like a movie playing in his head, passing through many memories, but he didn’t dare to savour it.

what time is it?

Xu Juan slowly took out his mobile phone and glanced at the time: 19:36.

Where to go? He seemed to have nowhere to go, but now it’s true, the sky is so big, there’s nowhere for him to be home.

He could go back, to his parents’ house, but Xu Juan found that even if he was down to this level, he still didn’t want to go back.

He couldn’t understand, why did he have to live with himself?

He goes home and admits his mistake, don’t do that shitty company again in the future, go to his dad and do something, let Xu Zhouyi take him, what can’t you do, learn slowly, live a normal life, don’t think about yourself If you are too strong, don’t think that you are trash, it’s time to throw it away – just like every ordinary person, admit your ordinary, and then live your life step by step. Although you can’t do earth-shattering things, you can also contribute to the country in a down-to-earth way. A little GDP, that’s all, is it difficult?

Why do you have to be the protagonist of an inspirational TV series?

Ha, even inspirational dramas, he can’t even act in dog-blooded love dramas right now.

Xu Juan was like a wooden stake, pestle at the door of Pei Yu’s house, and he didn’t want to go anywhere.

He asked himself: Do you want to go? do not want to go.

But he hadn’t found an excuse to stay, so Pei Yu closed the door, and his excuse was even harder to find, and the only trace of courage left was killed by the sound of the door closing.

Xu Juan continued to be in a daze.

He turned around, left the position of the main entrance, and stood against the wall.

Suddenly a little hungry, he didn’t seem to have lunch or dinner today.

It was still raining outside, and the clothes on my body were wet, and it was a little uncomfortable for the wet cloth to stick to my skin.

Xu Juan sneezed, hungry, tired and cold.

He squatted down along the wall, buried his face in his knees, and slowly closed his eyes.

…

I don’t know when I fell asleep.

It was already midnight when Xu Juan opened his eyes, and the corridor was dark.

He was woken up by the sound of the door opening, which not only woke him up, but also the voice-activated lights in the corridor.

The dazzling light suddenly filled the field of vision, Xu Juan instinctively squinted his eyes, turned his head to look, the door next to him was half open, and Pei Yu was standing in the crack of the door, staring at him coldly.

“What are you doing here?” Pei Yu’s clothes were neat, and he didn’t know if he never took it off, or if he got up and put it on again after he slept in the middle of the night. He obviously didn’t expect Xu Juan to be squatting in front of his house, nor did Xu Juan expect that he would be in the middle of the night. Run to open the door, what are you doing? Want to go out?

They looked at each other, the atmosphere was a little subtle.

“I’m sorry.” Xu Juan spoke first.

He should have apologized immediately, got out of the way, or found a convincing enough reason to ask Pei Yu to keep him, but Xu Juan just woke up, and this time he squatted to sleep, he was sore all over, and his mind was full of pulp Confused, his thoughts were sluggish for two seconds, and he accidentally blurted out his real thoughts: “Is it okay not to break up?”

“…”

Pei Yu’s face was still cold, after hearing this, his expression was indescribable, Xu Juan felt that he was scolded him: “You want shame? Why don’t I break up?” Or “Get out of here, scumbag!”

But Pei Yu is not such a rude person, Pei Yu doesn’t swear, just doesn’t say a word Staring at him with a rather unfriendly expression.

Xu Juan was afraid that he would close the door in the next second, so he changed his words quickly: “Uh, I mean… do you have any cold medicine?”

“Cold medicine? Do you have a cold?”

“It seems so.” Xu Juan touched his own His forehead was just an excuse, but he didn’t expect it to be really hot. Maybe it was because of the rain that he caught a cold just now when he slept.

Too bad it’s not serious.

It’s just that he is usually too healthy, and he can’t appear to be pitiful and weak at critical moments.

Having said that, is being weak useful?

What is the need to sell miserable things now, Pei Yu will feel more happy when he sees his miserable condition.

Xu Juan’s heart was disturbed, and a strange dull pain spread from his heart. He stared at the ground and wanted to stand up, but his legs and feet were a little unruly. He squatted down for too long and became numb.

He leaned against the wall and struggled to stand up straight.

This process took several seconds, during which Pei Yu kept looking at him, neither chasing him away nor reaching out to help him.

Xu Juan was lucky, he thought, maybe Pei Yu opened the door in the middle of the night just to confirm whether he left or not?

Is Pei Yu unable to sleep and thinking about him all the time?

“…” Xu Juan felt that he might be suffering from hysteria, and the problem of feeling good about himself could never be corrected.

But being self-motivated will give people courage. Xu Juan’s mood suddenly improved after being depressed for a long time. He is now a person who really has nothing. As the saying goes, those who are barefoot are not afraid of wearing shoes. ? At most, Pei Yu closed the door and told him to get out.

Xu Juan leaned against the wall, supported his numb body, leaned closer to the door, and whispered, “Can we not break up, Pei Yu?”

“Why?” Pei Yu’s tone was slightly sarcastic, “You Don’t you say it’s all fake, you don’t like me, there’s nowhere to go now, no one wants you, you finally know that I’m all right? Why are your bones so soft, Xu Juan?”

Xu Juan was silent Take a moment: “Actually, I like you.”

Pei Yu said indifferently: “Yes, your likes are really easy to put in and out. If you say you have it, you will have it, if you say you don’t have it, you will not have it.”

“…”

Xu Juan’s words were blocked. , I couldn’t pick up the next sentence for a long time.

Only then did he realize that Pei Yu had such a big temper.

I used to be stupid in front of him, so easy to coax, really because I loved him, like a little hedgehog, fell in love for the first time, willingly put away the thorns all over my body, turned my softest belly toward him, let him rub, give him It doesn’t matter if you squeeze it casually, even if it hurts.

But he not only had to pinch with his hands, but also stabbed with a knife.

Good, now it’s over.

He no longer has this privilege.

Xu Juan suddenly began to feel dizzy, and his eyes turned black.

Do I have a high fever, he thought?

Whether it’s true or not, if Xu Juan wants it to burn, it has to burn.

“Pei Yu.” Xu Juan was half-truthed and confused, full of nonsense, “I have a high fever of more than forty degrees, can you find me some medicine? Let me stay for one night.”

“… …”

Although Forty Degrees is pure nonsense, but his appearance is really not very good, Pei Yu probably didn’t want him to freeze to death at his door, and finally let him in: “The last night, you don’t want to use it again. The bullshit lied to me.”

[End of This Chapter]