Deluge - Chapter 41

[Chapter 41]

Xu Juan silently finished the meal, washed the dishes, tidied up the dining table and kitchen, and made a phone call with the master planner of Xinyou to talk about work. After talking about nine o’clock, Pei Yu was still in the study. It doesn’t seem like he’s going to go out to sleep.

Xu Juan opened WeChat, his transfer was not accepted, and Pei Yu did not accept it, and it would be automatically returned by the system after 24 hours.

Pei Yu is angry because of this?

Don’t want his money?

Xu Juan was a little confused. In fact, his idea was very simple. When Pei Yu was nice to him, he was naturally fine. Now that Pei Yu refuses to be nice to him, he should be a little self-aware, right? It was he who was courting Pei Yu, so he shouldn’t only be courting on the surface, in fact, he still had to rely on Pei Yu to support him, which was not authentic.

Pei Yu may also think that he is unwilling to leave because he has nowhere to go.

Xu Juan felt that he should clear this suspicion and make the love between them purer.

But Pei Yu was not happy again.

Xu Juan didn’t know whether he should be affectionate, and attributed Pei Yu’s performance to “still love him deeply, willing to support him for free, and don’t want to draw a line”, let’s just think so, he should be more optimistic now, otherwise he will sooner or later. Depressed myself.

Xu Juan cut a plate of fruit and brought it to the door of the study: “Pei Yu, are you busy?”

No answer.

Xu Juan pushed the door, but before opening it, Pei Yu locked the door.

“…” What are you doing?

During this period of time, Pei Yu has been unhappy, but the most unhappy is that he is indifferent to him. He has never had any troubles on the bright side like today. Xu Juan doesn’t know whether this is progress or regression for their relationship. Ways to use the rich experience of the past to deal with this relationship.

In the final analysis, he used to be highly skilled because he didn’t care, people who didn’t participate in the play could calmly judge the situation, be a perfect actor, practice the script step by step, and play tricks on each other.

When he is in a situation, who can not panic?

He won’t be flustered and nervous, which means he doesn’t care enough, and his feelings can’t affect his heart.

Xu Juan finally understands now, no wonder Pei Yu repeatedly asked him to speak directly, keep it simple, guessing is really tiring, people are animals that are good at self-preservation, and every time they are disappointed, they will cringe the second time. I won’t have as much courage and enthusiasm as last time. Every time I consume a little bit, after a long time, the deepest feelings will be worn down to the point where there is no passion.

Xu Juan felt that her love had just begun and should not end so quickly.

He pretended to cough twice and knocked on the door: “Mr. Pei, you occupied the study by yourself, what should I do if I want to read?”

Pei Yu still ignored him.

Xu Juan had no choice, so he went to the storage box in the living room to rummage, found the spare key, and opened the door from the outside.

Unexpectedly, it turned out that Pei Yu didn’t ignore him on purpose, but fell asleep.

There was a sofa bed in the study, and Pei Yu leaned on it and slept soundly.

He put headphones in his ears, slipped a book down on his knees, turned the pages halfway, and pressed a crease. Xu Juan smoothed the crease, inserted the book back into the bookshelf, and returned to the sofa, unable to help but look down. Pei Yu.

Pei Yu seems to have lost weight.

In fact, they were together every day, and it was not obvious, but when observing from this angle, Xu Juan remembered what he looked like a long time ago, and his complexion was better then than now.

Xu Juan didn’t wake him up, turned around and walked to the desk, looking around.

This is Pei Yu’s study room. It can’t be said about the layout style, because it is full of piles everywhere, and Pei Yu has moved the books from the school’s staff dormitory. There are too many books. On the chair, it was full.

There are also calligraphy and paintings brought by Xu Juan, which also need to occupy a part of the space.

Xu Juan looked up at the wall and saw a framed copybook hanging on the wall. He looked at it from a distance and couldn’t guess which one was hanging by Pei Yu. Pei Yu loved calligraphy, but he never said which one he preferred. Everyone, seems very fraternity.

But when he got closer, Xu Juan was very surprised that it was the “Orchid Pavilion Collection” that he had given to Pei Yu before.

Xu Juan didn’t know when Pei Yu hung up. He hasn’t been in the study recently, because since he started going to work, he has come home later than Pei Yu almost every day. After dinner, Pei Yu usually stays in the study for a long time, resting. , or work overtime, and Pei Yu doesn’t like to be disturbed at work, Xu Juan never bothers him.

Xu Juan stood by the wall and looked carefully.

Frankly speaking, this character is not badly written, although it can’t compare with his peak period, but in order to get Pei Yu at that time, he took twelve points of seriousness when he wrote, and he performed exceptionally well.

His self-evaluation is “OK”. From Pei Yu’s layman’s point of view, maybe Pei Yu really thinks he is very powerful, otherwise he wouldn’t be so high.

Is it great? Maybe.

Xu Juan found that he always seemed to be a person who was inferior to the other and more than the inferior, no matter which aspect, this was the case.

If he is allowed to grow up in an ordinary family, maybe he will be a well-educated child. When he grows up, he will find a good job with a monthly salary of several thousand and will be satisfied with marrying a good girl. But overall a good life.

But he is the son of Xu Jiren and the younger brother of Xu Zhouyi and Xu Qingguang.

He has no artistic talent, can’t follow his sister’s path, and has no business talent to become the second legendary entrepreneur.

If he is willing to be like a child born in an ordinary family, it seems that it is not difficult to find an ordinary job now, receive a monthly salary on time, and support himself.

At least he has a high degree of education and has won many awards. He is not bad at everything, even if he is proficient in music, chess, calligraphy and painting. Although he did not succeed in starting a company, he has been tossing around for so many years, and he knows more than the average person. Regular employees are more than enough, and he’s very social.

But a person who is less than better than the other, often can’t help but compare with the person above.

Most of the pain in life comes from dissatisfaction and unwillingness to be mediocre.

However, this is the trouble of the laity.

Xu Juan knew that Pei Yu would never consider these things.

Secular vision divides people into different classes. Some people are divided according to their status and others according to their assets. For example, people with a monthly income of more than 10,000 people look down on those with a monthly salary of 3,000 or 4,000 yuan, people with local hukou, and people from other places. The social contradictions of Pei Yu are rife in daily life, but they have nothing to do with Pei Yu.

Pei Yu lives in an ivory tower. He is keen on studying the history of the Ming Dynasty. He can spend a few years writing a book that no one cares about. The results are not good, but his enthusiasm is still undiminished. What to do and continue to work will not be affected by it.

He was a bit pedantic because he seemed to only walk in a straight line and would not be flexible, but because the line was clear and distinct, he could go on for a lifetime, unswervingly.

He is actually very friendly and doesn’t look at people from worldly eyes, because he doesn’t care about those things, and naturally he doesn’t think they are valuable, so what is valuable? Maybe it’s the love that can make you go all the way to black.

Xu Juan has no love.

He sometimes feels that he is just mentally ill, and he has to live with himself and become an extraordinary person, but he does not have an extraordinary standard in his heart.

So he was like a headless fly, bumping around and tossing himself to the point of being a ghost. He should learn from Pei Yu and think less about those who have or not.

It’s better to be stupid, stupid people have stupid blessings.

“Fool.” Xu Juan walked back to the sofa and poked Pei Yu’s shoulder lightly.

Pei Yu was playing music in his earphones and couldn’t hear him. But when he started, Pei Yu was slightly aware of it, frowned in his sleep, and didn’t wake up.

Xu Juan bent over and approached, and suddenly found that Pei Yu seemed to have dark circles under his eyes. Has he been not sleeping well recently?

Xu Juan couldn’t help but get closer and kissed Pei Yu’s lips.

They haven’t kissed in a long time, let alone more intimate interactions.

Obviously living together, but because of the Cold War, every day is so pure and few desires, like two monks.

Xu Juan felt that now was an opportunity.

He can’t be too honest, honest people are destined to suffer, he should take the opportunity to do something to Pei Yu to melt the iceberg between them. All good to say.

Xu Juan’s mind was thinking about it, and his hand had already moved first.

He sat down beside Pei Yu, stretched out his hand, gently pulled Pei Yu’s chin, half pressed his shoulders against Pei Yu, and kissed him directly.

Xu Juan didn’t expect that the feeling of kissing was so unfamiliar, and he couldn’t even remember the skills he should have. He only felt that Pei Yu’s lips were cold, probably because it was a little cold in the study, and he didn’t sleep well.

He tried to pry open Pei Yu’s teeth, but the movement was too big and he woke him up.

Pei Yu suddenly opened his eyes and pushed him: “What are you doing?”

Then he took off the earphones and threw them aside.

“…” He was only confused for a moment, and his eyes became cold again after he woke up. Xu Juan was thinking well just now, but his confidence was half dead when he met this look.

However, it’s not the way to go on like this, do they have to stay in a stalemate for a lifetime? Someone must go out and take the initiative to break the deadlock.

He encouraged himself and thought, don’t be afraid of Pei Yu, Pei Yu is an idiot, a paper tiger with a stern look, he can push him at most, what else can he do? Can you eat him?

Xu Juan’s heart fluttered, holding down Pei Yu’s shoulder and kissing him again.

The pleasure of kissing lies in lingering, a strong kiss is like a fight, the lingering is insufficient, and the pain is more than enough.

Xu Juan’s kiss was too reckless, the two of them rubbed their lips against their teeth, and neither of them got any pleasure, but instead saw blood.

Xu Juan felt the pain, but he wasn’t sure if it was his blood, because he faintly felt that he had bit Pei Yu too.

There was not much blood, but it mixed between the lips and teeth, instantly making the kiss bitter and astringent, Xu Juan’s eyes were wet, and finally gave up this awkward kiss, lying on Pei Yu’s shoulders, and hugged him hard.

“Are you angry again?” Xu Juan said in a low voice, “Do you mind if I transfer money to you just now?”

“I don’t mind.” Pei Yu said dutifully.

Xu Juan nodded, “Then you can accept it. When I subsidize your household and we live together, you can let me contribute.” He turned to look at Pei Yu, who was very close to the latter. , the tip of their noses almost touch each other.

Xu Juan originally wanted to say, can we stop the Cold War? Don’t be angry.

But when the words came to his mouth, he saw that Pei Yu was biting his red lips, and a current passed through his heart, and he felt that the sentence was not vivid enough.

He quietly took Pei Yu’s hand, closed his eyes, and said dumbly, “Would you like to kiss me, Pei Yu?”

[End of This Chapter]