Deluge - Chapter 47

[Chapter 47]

Xu Juan was kicked out of the bedroom by Pei Yu, hugged the pillow, and was in a daze in the living room.

He can’t sleep tonight.

Just when he saw Hou Shijie calling someone to drink on WeChat, he cleaned up a little and went out.

Before going out, he thought about whether Pei Yu would mind him going out at night? Maybe it will be even more unpleasant, but he won’t let him in, and he won’t let him out, what should he do? Crying at the door for Pei Yu to open the door, or do you just obey and go to another room obediently, without complaining?

Xu Juan’s mood was like a quagmire. He reminded himself more than once that he should be rational, but those rationalities fell into the mud and quickly sank to the bottom. Only the dull dull pain floated on top, which made him feel drowning and suffocating.

Xu Juan was waiting downstairs, and Hou Shijie drove to pick him up.

Guo Shao was also in the car. The two of them came so neatly, probably with a bit of a spectator mentality—Xu Juan had disappeared from their circle for too long.

As soon as they met, Guo Shao said, “I’ve lost weight.”

Hou Shijie also said, “Indeed, I’ve lost a lot of weight. Hey, my brother really suffers when he’s outside.”

“It’s okay.” Xu Juan sat in the car and closed the door. , “It’s not that miserable.”

Guo Shao laughed suddenly, and slapped Hou Shijie: “You know the shit! This is called ‘making people haggard for Yixiao’, our Xiao Xu gave up the life of Jinyi Yushi for true love. This kind of spirit, ordinary people can’t learn.”

He looked at Xu Juan again: “Am I right?”

“Please forgive me, blind poor.” Xu Juan leaned back on the back seat, his posture was quite decadent, and his expression was also sullenly, “Where to drink? I haven’t smelled alcohol for a long time.”

“You have the final say.”

“Then find a clean place, the place that is too noisy makes my ears hurt. ”

…”

Hou Shijie and Guo Shao looked at each other, thinking, is this still the little prince of Hongcheng Nightclub? Why the tone of an 80-year-old grandfather?

But Xu Juan said so, and the two of them did not object. They did find a clean bar. The three sat in the booth, Xu Juan sat on the side, and Hou Shijie and Guo Shao sat opposite him.

Originally Hou Shijie wanted to call a few more people, but Xu Juan came, and the three of them wanted to talk about private topics, so it was inconvenient to call too many friends.

Guo Shao and Xu Juan clinked glasses and asked curiously, “What the hell is going on? How did you become such a virtuous person? Tell me if you are short of money, what is our relationship, so I can leave you alone?

” To be polite, let’s cut down on it, and pay a million or so casually, which is not considered money in the eyes of people like them, and it is not enough to play a game of mahjong. If there is a little more, it is not impossible to invest some funds in Xu Juan’s company.

Xu Juan expressed his appreciation, he said, “It’s not about money.”

“What’s that? It’s really for love after I said it? You don’t want to, Xu Juan?”

“…”

Xu Juan is good In order to save face, he was unwilling to show his miserable side to others, but he felt uneasy in his heart.

“That’s all.” Xu Juan said vaguely, “Emotions are too complicated, I can’t explain in a few words, I’m sick of it.”

Guo Shao and Hou Shijie looked at him with the eyes of aliens.

“Have you been pierced by your soul?” Guo Shao was so shocked that his jaw almost dropped, “Is this what the love scene killer Xiao Xu should say?”

“Kill a fart, I want to stab myself.” A big glass of wine dries up, “Can you two stop looking like this? What’s the matter, you haven’t been in love? Haven’t you been bothered?”

Guo Shao said, “I’ve only talked about one, Linlin, I’m with her. You all know it for so many years.”

Of course, Xu Juan knew Guo Shao’s girlfriend Zou Lin.

Speaking of looks, Zou Lin is not the most beautiful, but she is not bad, mainly because of her good personality. She knew Guo Shao when she was in college, and the two fell in love for many years. In recent years, Guo Shao has been fooling around outside, but the colorful flags fluttered outside, and the red flag at home did not fall.

Xu Juan didn’t think it was strange before, and even took it for granted.

But after having really talked about a relationship with heart, and knowing what it feels like to care about someone, when I think of Zou Lin again, Xu Juan doesn’t understand, how can she be so tolerant? Guo Shao often messes with flowers outside, does it matter to her? Didn’t they quarrel privately?

“Does Linlin not love you? I only love your money.” Xu Juan said.

“No, she loves Lao Tzu to death, right? But she’s open to it.” Guo Shao knew what Xu Juan meant, “Although I’m not very disciplined, even if I sleep with someone else, I won’t change my mind. Just play around, I only love her one, she knows this very well, and I dote on her so much, she wants the stars, I don’t give the moon, I’m a good husband in the 21st century, okay?”

Xu Juan: “… “…”

She also calls her a good husband, the standard of a good husband is too low, right?

Xu Juan choked for a long time and didn’t want to talk anymore.

With a frustrated look on his face, Guo Shao couldn’t bear to see it, and couldn’t help but say, “Oh, I’ll tell you the truth, in fact, we’ve also quarreled, you know, there’s no couple who don’t have conflicts at all, it’s up to you After dealing with this conflict, if you can’t handle it, then break up. Isn’t it easy to break up? If you don’t want to give up points, keep grinding. Take love seriously, think it is a sacred ceremony, this ceremony should be recited in a certain fixed posture, then you are finished.”

“…”

Xu Juan was stunned for a moment. He didn’t expect Guo Shao’s dog’s mouth to spit out such high-grade ivory, but Guo Shao said: “This is what our family’s little Linlin said. Don’t think about whether you should be willing to live, don’t limit yourself to death, and don’t feel that others are sorry for you, or you are sorry for him, live an unreasonable life, and it is best to be comfortable, otherwise your life will be benevolence, righteousness, courtesy, wisdom and trustworthiness The dogma of stubbornness.”

Xu Juan: “…”

“No, benevolence, righteousness, courtesy, wisdom and faith are still necessary, right?” Xu Juan disagreed.

Guo Shao glanced at him again in amazement, and affirmed: “You really have been penetrated by a soul, you would never have said that before, President Xu.”

Xu Juan lowered his head and smiled.

The music in the bar seemed to match his mood, the tune was slow and depressed.

Xu Juan listened quietly, drinking not less wine, but not getting the slightest bit of comfort.

There is no doubt that he likes Pei Yu very much now, but this feeling makes him more and more painful, and after a long time without a response, he knows rationally that Pei Yu still loves him, but he didn’t forgive him, Angrily, she refused to show her love.

But love is not a math problem. People don’t fall in love with reason. He can’t feel the emotion of being loved, and gradually he is not sure. Does Pei Yu really love him?

Maybe there used to be one hundred percent of love, but now there are only thirty or forty points left, and it is still gradually decreasing.

Otherwise, how could Pei Yu be so cold to him?

What the hell should he do to fix their relationship?

Xu Juan couldn’t think of a way.

He couldn’t think anymore, he didn’t want to do anything, he even thought, forget it, or just leave it like this, stop grinding, long pain is worse than short pain.

But if they broke up, he would not be reconciled.

Although the time he and Pei Yu spent together was not long, they were sweet and had many good memories.

As soon as he closed his eyes, he would think of the scenes he and Pei Yu had experienced in the summer before autumn came, the streets full of traffic, the hot carriages, the drunken people under the neon lights, the ink on the shirts on purpose, the top of the mountain. The stars in the sky, the flowers we raised together when we lived together, and every night we slept together, Pei Yu kissed the corner of his mouth and shyly said “I love you”.

…

But all these are good memories for him, but Pei Yu doesn’t think so? That was the whole process of Pei Yu being deceived, and there was nothing good at all.

His confession to Pei Yu had an impact on the latter, probably no less than Bai Suzhen drinking realgar wine and showing her true form in front of Xu Xian.

But if because of this, Xu Xian no longer loves her from now on, then that’s not the case, right? Xu Juan drank too high, his eyes dimmed, and movies kept playing in his mind.

When he came out of the bar, Hou Shijie supported him and asked him, “Brother, where are you going? Will I take you home?”

Xu Juan said, “No, I’m going to West Lake.”

Hou Shijie knew that he was drunk, and was so happy: “Go What are you doing at West Lake?”

Xu Juan whispered in a low voice: “Look for Xu Xian and ask him if he wants to borrow my umbrella? Why didn’t he come to get

it ?” Take a break, sigh, why don’t you come home with me? It’s so late, you wake up your family, you two won’t have any more conflicts, right?”

“…”

Xu Juan didn’t say a word, he was so drunk It was amazing, and Guo Shao next to him was also drunk, but Guo Shao wasn’t a drunkard and was on the phone when Xu Juan heard him say, “Yes, they are with President Xu and the others. I’ll go back later, go to sleep and don’t. Wait for me… What? No, I only drink alcohol today and do nothing else, hey auntie, I’m serious!” It

was two o’clock in the morning.

Standing on the side of the street, being blown by the cold wind of the autumn night, Xu Juan was jolted and suddenly sobered up, “I’m going home.” He sneezed and rubbed the tip of his red nose, “Send me home. ”

…

When he got home, it was about 2:40. The living room was exactly the same as when he left. The pillow was thrown crookedly on the sofa, the bedroom door was closed, and Pei Yu was sleeping.

Xu Juan took off his shoes and clothes, walked slowly into the bathroom, and flushed his face with cold water.

After washing for a long time, he turned off the faucet and lay on the sink in a daze.

The feeling of being drunk is unpleasant, and being drunk and not thoroughly drunk is even more unpleasant.

Xu Juan paused for a while, then slowly stood up straight, and just turned around when he suddenly found that Pei Yu had come over at some point, and was standing at the door staring at him.

“Where have you been?” Pei Yu’s expression seemed to condense a layer of frost, which made Xu Juan shudder.

Xu Juan pursed her lips: “I went out for a while.”

“I asked where did you go?”

“…”

Xu Juan had a headache, leaned back, and leaned on the sink: “Going for a drink, a bar. ”

“With whom?”

Pei Yu’s eyes were like awls, nailed to Xu Juan’s heart. He was a little breathless under such gaze: “Friend, the few you have seen.”

“Really?” Pei Yu said, ” You haven’t been out with them for a long time.”

“What do you mean?”

“It doesn’t matter.” After Pei Yu finished speaking, he turned around and walked out, and went back to the bedroom. Hearing the heavy slamming of the door, Xu Juan was stunned for a moment

. He walked to the door and knocked hard: “Pei Yu! ”

There was a muffled sound, and the atmosphere of a fight was born for no reason.

Pei Yu opened the door with a “swoosh”: “What are you doing?”

“I want to ask you, what are you doing?” Xu Juan said, “If you don’t love me, just say it, why are you torturing me like this? Are you hating me, deliberately taking revenge on me, watching me carefully curry favor with you, and then being slapped by you? , Are you very happy? Finally got revenge?”

Pei Yu was stunned, his face instantly turned ugly.

He didn’t refute, his first reaction was to close the door, but Xu Juan’s arm got stuck in the crack of the door, stopping him.

“You talk.” Xu Juan said, “Why don’t you say a word?”

“What do you want me to say?”

“Say you don’t love me, tell the truth.”

“…”

Pei Yu was silent for a moment, then suddenly said “You want to force me to say this for a long time, right? You want me to say goodbye, right, Xu Juan?”

[End of This Chapter]