Deluge - Chapter 48

[Chapter 48]

Most of the beauty in this world is short-lived. When “beautiful” is prefixed with “once”, it will become better and more like a poisoned mirror, reflecting today’s ugliness and embarrassment.

Pei Yu obviously knew very well that it was unreasonable to quarrel with a drunk. Even if he had the upper hand, Xu Juan might have forgotten about it when he woke up the next morning. So after Pei Yu said that, he pushed him away and closed the door.

——This is Xu Juan’s guess after sobering up.

He felt that Pei Yu didn’t finish his sentence, maybe he was deliberately leaving room, and he didn’t want to directly strangle this love that was on the verge of collapse. Of course, it’s also possible that he was self-indulgent, and Pei Yu was just too lazy to deal with alcoholics.

In short, after that night, Pei Yu became more indifferent, and it was difficult for Xu Juan to stick to him with a smiling face like before.

Xu Juan couldn’t laugh anymore, and was even a little depressed.

He is not Li Mengzhou. He has been scolded for a long time by a person who doesn’t give him a good face. He still has no complaints. Xu Juan has been the proud son of heaven for more than 20 years. , he can do a little low for love, but he can be low for a while, but he can’t be low for a lifetime, unless all the bones in his body are broken, so that he can’t stand up again.

They were caught in an unusually embarrassing stalemate.

This is a real cold war. Neither side wants to talk. They sleep under the same roof every day, but in different rooms, work hours are inconsistent, and get off work hours are staggered, and they hardly meet each other.

Xu Juan knew that this stalemate was not the way to go. They should have a good talk and settle the matter.

But if he wants to take this step, someone has to bow his head first. It is delusional for Pei Yu to bow his head, and Xu Juan has bowed his head too many times during the Cold War. Fear –

however, the more fundamental reason is that he has resentment in his heart: “What did I do wrong? Why do you want me to apologize again? What do you want?” The

reason is the reason, and the emotion is the emotion.

Everyone speaks great truths, but not everyone can precisely control their emotions according to the right and wrong, otherwise people will not be humans, but robots.

Xu Juan gradually did not want to see Pei Yu again.

As soon as he saw Pei Yu, his heart was filled with negative energy, guilt, self-blame, regret, veiled resentment, and painful love.

He started working overtime frequently again.

Fortunately, the work went smoothly this time, and the game performed better than he expected after the game was released. The company was full of joy, and Xu Juan felt a little comfort.

Coincidentally, Pei Yu is also busy recently, seems to be busier than him.

One night, when Xu Juan came home, Pei Yu hadn’t slept. He heard Pei Yu calling in the living room. The other party might be the school leader, or some elder. He seemed very annoyed and accused Pei Yu of doing something wrong. I didn’t explain, just said it would be dealt with, and hung up the phone.

Xu Juan looked over from the door of the room and saw Pei Yu put down the phone, suddenly picked up a pill from the table, and drank it with plain water.

When Pei Yu heard that he was back, he didn’t look back at him. After taking the medicine, he went back to his room, closed the door, and treated him like air the whole time.

Xu Juan rummaged through the living room, and finally found an empty cold medicine box in the trash can.

This is the third week of their stalemate. It rained heavily last night, the weather was getting colder, the community was full of fallen leaves, and the atmosphere of autumn was getting stronger. In a few days, winter will come.

Xu Juan grabbed the empty pill box, pinched it out of shape, and threw it back into the trash can.

The next day, Pei Yu didn’t come back all night.

Xu Juan didn’t know whether he was working overtime all night, or living at a house over the school, and didn’t plan to come back.

They have now reached the point where they do not report to each other no matter what they do outside. The love relationship exists in name only, and there is only one opportunity to go through the separation procedures.

Another day, Xu Juan went to the hospital to prescribe some medicine. There was nothing serious. It was a medicine designed to treat headaches and calm the nerves.

Pei Yu doesn’t go home, he lives in someone else’s house by himself, so he can’t be so at ease.

Therefore, he wanted to call Pei Yu and ask a few questions, but at this juncture, if one is careless, this call will become their last contact.

Xu Juan couldn’t make a move.

To this day, he still can’t do it.

But he didn’t have the strength to think about anything else, and he could shout “I don’t want to break up” hoarsely, indicating that the love was warm, and he still loves now, but he can’t get up.

Probably because the joy of love has not been obtained for a long time, every corner of the heart is full of ashes, and the memory of the past is about to be preserved, and it is difficult to beat fiercely.

He felt like he was years older.

——It was just a failed love affair. Is it that serious?

He advised himself to be optimistic, but that night, after seven o’clock, Pei Yu didn’t come back.

Although they didn’t speak when he was at home, and even deliberately staggered the time to use the bathroom, the feeling was different without this person.

Xu Juan took a random bite of dinner and couldn’t stay in the empty house, so he had to go to drink with Hou Shijie and the others.

There were more than three people this time. Guo Shao called a bunch of them, including friends and business partners.

Xu Juan came out to relax and didn’t want to socialize, so as soon as he entered the box, he avoided the center and sat in the corner.

He hadn’t attended the party in public for a long time, and others couldn’t help but stare at him. He didn’t care, and didn’t bother to explain anything. He sat quietly beside him and dragged Hou Shijie to drink with him.

Xu Juan came here in pursuit of getting drunk.

When he didn’t know how many cups he drank, he found that there were a few more people in the box, both men and women, all beautiful.

This is a routine arrangement, and it is not unusual at all. The day he and Pei Yu met, it was a similar scene. He was holding a female college student in his arms. Unexpectedly, he invited his teacher.

Xu Juan smiled, the lights in the room were blurred, his eyes fell on the face of a young boy opposite, who was sitting next to a person Xu Juan didn’t know, and when he saw him staring at him, his face flushed and he was embarrassed. Head down.

Guo Shao noticed it: “Yo, what are you doing, Mr. Xu?”

“It’s a little familiar.” Xu Juan was so drunk that he had a headache, but he was in a good mood, because his brain was so drenched, he forgot all the troubles.

“Really familiar and fake?” Guo Shao was happy with the beauty of an adult, he waved at the boy and asked him to come to Xu Juan, “Then you two have a chat, have you met before?” The

boy listened and sat down to Xu Juan. Juan beside.

Xu Juan is twenty-six this year. He doesn’t seem to be much younger than Xu Juan, but he is dressed up like a male college student.

Xu Juan Zui looked at people, and felt that he looked a bit like Pei Yu.

“How old are you?”

“Eighteen.”

“…” Xu Juan smiled “puchi” and asked again, “How old are you?” The

boy told the truth: “Twenty-one.”

Xu Juan nodded and picked up the bottle of wine. Fill yourself up.

When he went to get the wine bottle, this kid didn’t have any eye for it. He didn’t know how to help pour the wine. He just stared at him stupidly. .

But when he looked at Xu Juan, his expression was dull and innocent, and the more Xu Juan looked at him, the more he felt like Pei Yu – the former Pei Yu.

At first, this similarity was only one or two points, but the more Xu Juan drank, the more dizzy he became.

Xu Juan’s headache was getting worse, he frowned, and said sternly, “Smile, let me see.”

“…”

The boy was frightened by his crazy, drunken appearance, so he endured it. Not daring to show it, he forced a smile.

Xu Juan was dissatisfied: “You slapped me

again?” The boy shook: “I, I don’t…”

Xu Juan held his wrist: “No? How long have you not smiled at me? Let you laugh, why is it so hard?” The

boy had to grin and try to laugh properly, but it was uglier than crying.

Xu Juan borrowed the wine to go crazy, and threw the glass suddenly: “Do you want to quarrel with me? After so many quarrels, you haven’t quarreled enough? What do you want me to do?!

” It was deafening again, the whole box was frightened, even Guo Shao’s eyelids jumped, and he quickly turned on the headlights: “What’s the matter, what’s wrong with President Xu?”

The boy cried on the spot and stepped back timidly. shrink.

Hou Shijie quickly held down Xu Juan and whispered, “Are you drinking too much, brother?”

Xu Juan wiped his face, aware of his gaffe, he stood up from the sofa, grabbed his jacket and walked out. Guo Shao was stunned for a moment, then pointed at the boy and said, “What are you doing? Hurry

up and coax our President Xu! Hurry up and coax people back!

”

Dare to disobey, he hurriedly followed.

Xu Juan didn’t go far, just stayed in the corridor.

The boy was completely afraid of him, so he walked up to him: “Xu, President Xu, I’m sorry.”

Xu Juan glanced at him and suddenly said, “Is there a cigarette?” The

boy was stunned, took out a cigarette, and helped him On point.

After Xu Juan finished smoking half of it, his mood calmed down a bit, and he said to the person who had been staring at him cautiously: “I’m going home, you can go back.”

“No, I’ll be scolded when I go back.”

“Who scolds you?”

” President Guo blames me for spoiling your happiness.” The boy prayed, “Go back too, Mr. Xu, I’m sorry, it was my fault just now.”

“…” Xu Juan pressed her forehead, and her headache got worse. ” You didn’t drink a bar just now? Can you drive?”

“No, yes.”

Xu Juan nodded and asked him to drive Hou Shijie’s car to take him home.

In fact, Xu Juan had no other intentions. Since he didn’t dare to go back to the box by himself, let him stay outside for a while and deal with Guo Shao.

But this boy’s emotional intelligence is really not very good. He is not smart when he should be smart, and he is blind when he shouldn’t be smart. He thought that Xu Juan wanted to take him home to sleep. If you don’t have bad habits in bed, it will be miserable tonight.

He was frightened in his heart, his hands were shaking so badly, he almost drove the car into a plane, or the kind of flying.

Xu Juan was already very drunk, but being shaken like this, he got car sick. As soon as the car stopped, he opened the door and started vomiting.

Xu Juan almost passed out at the gate of the community, the boy supported him: “I’m sorry.”

“…”

Xu Juan was speechless, he wanted to vomit when he opened his mouth, he pointed down the direction, and the boy helped him walk into the community .

It was already past midnight, and the surroundings were quiet. After entering the building and getting on the elevator, Xu Juan finally arrived at the door intact. He opened the door, turned on the light, and looked down. There were no shoes at the door, and Pei Yu did not come back. .

When he entered, the boy followed.

When Pei Yu was not at home, Xu Juan couldn’t care about this anymore. He went to the bathroom immediately and vomited again.

When Xu Juan finally finished vomiting, he washed his face and came out to take a look. The boy was standing by the sofa, his eyes rolled around, he saw him, and asked, “Mr. Xu, do you live alone?”

“No.” Xu Juan was a little annoyed , dizzy again, and wanted to rest early, he said, “You can go, you can spend the night wherever you want, if Guo Shao asks, you can sleep with me.” The

boy was puzzled: “So, we are only nominally Are you going to sleep? I thought you liked me, so you took me home.”

Xu Juan said, “I have a headache right now, and I’m not in the mood.”

Just as he finished speaking, he suddenly heard the door open behind him.

Xu Juan’s back froze, and when he looked back, he saw that the bedroom door suddenly opened, and a person came out, it was Pei Yu.

Pei Yu may have just returned not long ago, the suit on his body has not been changed, he glanced at the boy, then looked at Xu Juan: “Do you need me to go out and make room for you guys, you are in the mood?”

Xu Juan After a while, he said in a daze: “…Pei Yu? You are at home, when did you come back?”

The coldness on Pei Yu’s face couldn’t hold back, and it burned into a ball of anger: “I shouldn’t have come back, right? ——I shouldn’t come back! Never come back!”

He was holding a book in his hand, and just as he was talking, he threw the book towards Xu Juan.

Xu Juan was smashed to the chest, and the rustling of the pages of the book scratched on his eardrums.

Pei Yu’s eyes were red, he stared at him fiercely, and said incoherently: “You treat me like this! I should have known, you treated me like this! You fucking say you love me! Where did you love me?! You What do you love me?! Xu Juan! What do you love me?! Did you even love me seriously one day?! It’s all fucking fake!”

Pei Yu has always been gentle, reserved, and well-bred, but now he is from the inside And the field exploded.

He stretched out his hand and fished aside, not knowing what he grabbed, and smashed it directly at Xu Juan.

But it was another book, and there was nothing else on their table, just books.

Xu Juan didn’t hide, but was smashed twice. He tried to explain, but he opened his mouth and found that it seemed that he couldn’t explain it. Everything seemed like a lie, and he had never done a few real things.

Moreover, how to judge whether something is true or false? Argument or opinion?

After doing everything, and saying “I love you in my heart”, how can people be convinced?

“I’m sorry.” Xu Juan’s throat was dry, he lowered his head and covered his eyes with one hand.

Pei Yu stopped looking at him, suddenly walked into the study, and took out two things from the study, a character and a painting that were carefully framed.

The word is “Orchid Pavilion Collection Preface”, and the painting is “Cold Plum Map”, which Xu Juan wrote in his own hand.

Pei Yu smashed the frame in front of him, took out two pieces of paper, shredded them one by one, and threw the scraps of paper in front of him –

“Break up, I’ll give it to you. The sincerity of it is to be fed to the dog, and there is no need to pay it back!”

[End of This Chapter]