Deluge - Chapter 52

[Chapter 52]

If a bad person is chosen between Xu Juan and Pei Yu, then it must be Xu Juan. Even he himself thinks that it is him who is most likely to do bad things, not Pei Yu.

He has a deep mind, is eloquent and eloquent, and does many evils. Isn’t it normal to play tricks?

– Pei Yu must have thought so, right?

Xu Juan was so uncomfortable being stared at by Pei Yu that he couldn’t spit out the bitter water in his stomach.

He sighed and said worriedly: “I don’t know where your book is, I didn’t hide it.”

Pei Yu glanced at him: “Did I say you hid it?”

“…Then why are you looking at me like that?” Xu Juan closed the box, dragged it to a place out of the way, turned around and said, “If you are worried, you can look for it in my house, but if you don’t have it, you don’t have it. I didn’t lie to you, you must have remembered it wrong.”

Pei Yu Without saying a word, Xu Juan stopped talking, and the two looked at each other at a distance of three or five meters. As soon as it was quiet, the awkward atmosphere came again. Xu Juan quickly looked for a topic: “Are you really going to study abroad? Where are you going?”

Pei Yu said, “Britain.

” The taste, “You are doing well in Hongda, do you want everything here? Why?”

“…”

Pei Yu gave him a cool look, his expression seemed to say: You are asking for a reason. Xu Juan was stunned for a while, feeling vaguely that something was wrong…

——Didn’t Pei Yu look away?

Since it is so light, he doesn’t care about him at all, why give up everything he has and go abroad. This trip not only costs a lot, but also leaves his hometown and the cultural environment he likes – what does he want? Is it for learning? study what? Who believes.

If it was for healing, and to avoid him, why did he take the initiative to talk to him now? Take the initiative to come to his house to find a book? Shouldn’t they stay far away?

Xu Juan vaguely glimpsed Pei Yu’s true heart from the contradiction, but he was not sure.

“Pei Yu.” Xu Juan’s throat was dry, and a thought flashed through his mind that he didn’t dare to think about just now, “Is the book you’re looking for really with me? You didn’t mean it, right?”

Pei Yu denied: “What are you doing? What do you mean? Do you suspect that I touch porcelain?”

“Yes.” Xu Juan murmured softly, “I don’t have this book at all, why are you trying to deceive me? If it’s to talk to me, tell me directly, okay? I’d be happy to—”

“You think too much

!” Pei Yu suddenly interrupted him, and his reaction was very intense: “I don’t want to talk to you, you don’t want to be sentimental!”

Pei Yu turned around abruptly and walked towards the door, looking like he didn’t want to stay for a second. .

“Wait!” Xu Juan stopped him, “Since everyone is here, let’s talk calmly, we have broken up, what are you afraid of? Don’t you dare to listen to me?”

Pei Yu’s footsteps stopped in place , Xu Juan said: “Actually, I have a lot of things I want to tell you, but in the past, there was always a misunderstanding, either too busy with work and no chance, or the atmosphere was not right, the longer the time, the deeper the contradictions we accumulated, and later, I also felt in my heart. I’m not in a good mood, I don’t want to speak.”

“…”

“But after so many days, I’ve calmed down a lot. When I look back on the days we spent together, it seems that I’ve been confused.”

Pei Yu sneered . Said: “Are you talking about yourself? I’m not confused at all.”

“Okay, it’s me.” Xu Juan coughed lightly, “Do you mind if I start from the beginning? You, but I… I fell in love with you a long time ago, maybe on the night you accompany me to watch the stars, or earlier, I just don’t want to admit it. Later, on my birthday, you ran to the hotel Come to me and ask me if I would like to go with you. In fact, I figured it out that day. We are not suitable. You are a good person and I don’t want to hurt you. But you came to me suddenly, in front of so many people, I I don’t know if you can understand my mood at the time, I was like a fool, without any reason, and was taken away by you in a hot-headed way.”

“Looking back now, maybe I did something wrong. If I like you, I should choose a better way to be with you, but I was in a state of confusion at the time. I was actually a little panicked, but I still don’t want to admit it. My heart is attached to you, but I want to stay rational, I want to pull it back, and I keep competing with myself, so I do a lot of wrong things.”

“…”

“Also, I was very confused at the time. , I don’t know how to live to make sense. This negative emotion has also been vented to my feelings. I dealt with our relationship very badly. I want you to comfort me, but I am afraid that I will be too dependent on you and become supported by you. rubbish.”

Xu Juan exhaled heavily, the heavy heart that he thought was hard to say, after saying it, it was a lot easier.

Pei Yu’s back was straight and stiff, and he didn’t say a word after listening.

Xu Juan thought he didn’t believe it: “I didn’t lie to you, we’ve all made trouble like this, and I said a lot of rhetoric to deceive people, is it necessary?”

Pei Yu was silent for a while, and suddenly asked: “So you did it behind my back. What?”

“It’s nothing.” Xu Juan laughed at himself, “You may not believe it, when I was extreme, I thought about finding someone else, I forced myself not to rely too much on you, and I didn’t want to be eaten to death by you… But I didn’t do anything in the end. ”

Nothing was done?” Pei Yu looked back at him, “What’s the matter with that blue hair?”

Xu Juan was stunned for a moment, thinking that he was really worried about this, so far, there is nothing wrong with it Dare to confess.

“It’s my ex, uh…not the same ex you are.” Xu Juan glanced at Pei Yu quietly, feeling a little guilty, “It’s the lover I took care of before, sorry, I used to be a jerk, and my private life was messy.

” …”

Pei Yu stared at him coldly, Xu Juan’s cheeks were hot, and he lowered his head and touched his nose: “It’s that Li Mengzhou, he’s a star, but I separated from him before I met you, and then there’s really nothing else, then The root of hair was a misunderstanding, he came to me to get back together, and I rejected him… I was afraid that you would think too much, so I didn’t say it, I wanted to maintain a good image in front of you, but I missed the best time to explain, let you I misunderstood me so deeply.”

Xu Juan spoke for a long time, his mouth was dry. He pursed his lips and wanted to pour himself some water to drink, but Pei Yu didn’t move, and he didn’t dare to move. The gaze that fell on him was like an electric light in the interrogation room, illuminating him with nowhere to hide.

Xu Juan admitted that there was no lie, but if it was true or false, he could not show the proof, and Pei Yu would not believe it if he wanted to.

Xu Juan thought for a while, and then said, “The last time was also a misunderstanding. I was drinking with Hou Shijie and the others that day. After getting drunk, that person sent me home…”

Xu Juan didn’t know how to explain the detailed reason. Pei Yu can understand.

Their living environment is completely different. He socialized a lot in those occasions. He has long developed a behavior pattern of “adapting to the environment”. Every sentence is more truthful, but it is out of tune, and others treat you as an outlier.

For example, that night, the boy asked him: “Aren’t you going to sleep with me?”

If Xu Juan answered sincerely: “This is my boyfriend’s house and I, although I’m arguing with him, but I love him very much, I don’t want to sleep with other people, I brought you back to help you.” It would seem quite insane, and there is no need to say so much.

That’s why he solved it with “I’m not in the mood”, which is short, direct, and not sloppy.

The fault was that he didn’t know that Pei Yu was at home.

Xu Juan paused for a while, and finally chose to tell the truth.

He explained sentence by sentence, from why he went to drink in a bad mood to why he took the boy home.

Pei Yu’s face was ugly, especially when he said “you kick me out of the bedroom”, Pei Yu turned his face away and stopped looking at him.

It’s been a month since we broke up, and this confession comes too late.

They froze in the empty living room, and saw their pale face after being seriously injured and bleeding from each other’s eyes, and recalling the sweet time in the past was as short as fireworks.

Someone once said that between long flowing water and bright fireworks, he would rather choose the latter.

now what?

It’s important to know after you’ve been in love, but unfortunately you can’t come back again.

Xu Juan stared blankly at the floor and finished speaking, as if the backlogged stones in his heart had been lifted and suddenly empty.

But Pei Yu didn’t say whether he believed it or not, that’s right, it made no difference whether he believed it or not. After breaking up for so long, Pei Yu finally went out and didn’t want to come back to this evil spirit like him again. It was human nature.

When it breaks, break it.

Xu Juan adjusted his breathing, and finally felt that this time he had come to an end.

There is no misunderstanding between them, but the result has not changed. After all, the injuries they have suffered are real, and the misunderstanding can be explained clearly, but the scars cannot be erased.

“I said so much, you…” Xu Juan said the last question in his heart, “Do you have nothing to say to me?”

Unexpectedly, Pei Yu said, “Yes.”

Xu Juan was nervous. Tight: “What? You said.”

Pei Yu said: “I saw it.”

Xu Juan was stunned, his heart was hot and cold, the taste was not too complicated, but what Pei Yu said was not what he expected.

“You should have heard, right? I’ve been sick for a few days.” Pei Yu said, “I was disheartened in those days, and I figured it out. Relationships are never a matter of one person. Like, it’s my fault that you don’t love me, I don’t need to hate you too much, forget it.”

“…”

Xu Juan was stunned, and Pei Yu was rarely frank: “It was an accident to see you today, but if you don’t come to me, I plan to see you for the last time. I have already prepared the excuse and rehearsed it in my heart. After several times, you guessed right, it’s that book. Because I’m going abroad this time, I won’t be coming back. I plan to take my mother with me. In the future… take care and don’t make others sad. ”

I didn’t!” Xu Juan stepped forward and grabbed him, “I love you, do you still not believe me?”

“What if you believe, can you start over?” Pei Yu lost too much weight, the visual effect It was not obvious, but when Xu Juan held his hand, he clearly felt the difference.

“Why can’t we start over?” The flames in Xu Juan’s heart that were almost extinguished rekindled with a bang, “As long as you nod your head, we will start again immediately.”

[End of This Chapter]