Eternal Burning - Chapter 42

[Chapter 42 Goodbye, Professor Bei]

“Russell’s ethics associates morality with human desires. He believes that there is ‘spirit’ above instinct, which makes us no longer selfish and allows us to empathize with others. Therefore, value judgments are beyond the individual and the desire of the whole human being. Expression, that is, the expression of ‘hope’. We see something as ‘evil’, when in fact it is ‘hope’ that no one will encounter such a thing. There is a lot of debate in ethics today, and his ethics is full of It’s not very tenable. He hopes to have a world full of emotions but not violent and out of control because of emotions. Let’s discuss beauty and wisdom together, which in itself is an absolute idealism…”

At the end of the speech, the stage The applause gradually rose, and I went to the backstage lounge under the guidance of the staff.

“Teacher, do you want to take a rest here or go to the airport now?”

I booked a flight back to Qingwan at 6 pm. It is already one o’clock. If you go early, I will wait, and I will wait here. It is better to go to the airport early Feel free to wait.

“Take me to the airport.” The

staff nodded in response and hurriedly coordinated the vehicle for me.

Two days passed in a blink of an eye, and the event ended successfully. It was time for me to return to Qingwan and my own home. But to be honest, I would like the lecture to go on forever, for a week, fortnight, a month…so that I have an excuse not to go back.

The organizer specially called a barrier-free taxi for me, which is very convenient to get on and off, and I don’t need to trouble others.

An hour later, I arrived at the airport, checked my wheelchair, and replaced it with a special wheelchair on board. After that, I went through the security check with the ticket and went to wait near the boarding gate.

Two hours before boarding the plane, I took out a copy of “Little Logic” from my bag and read it from scratch for some unknown number of times.

For books, people should not ignore it because they have read it, and for words, they should not despise it because they know it.

Every book is a refresher, and you can always gain some strength from it. There is no useless reading in this world.

I was so concentrated in the vast philosophical theory that I didn’t even respond when someone called my name beside me. It wasn’t until the other party gently pushed me with his hand that I regained my senses and looked at the other party in amazement.

“He… doctor?”

“What a coincidence.” He Weizhou parked a small suitcase at the foot of the boat, holding the same ticket as mine. Don’t think, he should also be a passenger on this plane.

There is such a coincidence in the world…

“Hello.” I nodded politely at him, “It’s really a coincidence.”

Although I don’t know it well, I know it anyway, and on the same flight, the other party is naturally beside me. Sit down.

“I’m going home for the New Year, how about you? Are you here to play?” He Weizhou asked.

“No, I’m here to attend the lecture.” I turned over a page of the book, and I talked to him wholeheartedly, “It’s only the fourth day of the first year, so are you leaving?”

“Enough, little animals won’t die just because of the New Year. Don’t get sick, go back early, start work early. By the way, is the puppy okay? If you have time, take it to me for a follow-up.”

My fingertips paused, I felt a little guilty, and cleared my throat. : “It’s being kept by my friend now. It’s pretty good, but…it doesn’t like to walk. I don’t know if there is any psychological shadow.”

I don’t know if Shang Muxiao returned the dog, but he knew that he was at his house that day. Just took the dog away. If he doesn’t want to pay it back, I really can’t explain Yu Xixi’s side. The little girl has been looking forward to it for two months, and she has bought all the utensils…

“Don’t you like to walk?” He Weizhou said in surprise, “Then you let your friend Bring it to have a look when you have time.”

“…Okay.” All I could do was nod.

The topic came to an end for a while, and I returned my attention to the book.

After a while, He Weizhou suddenly said, “Is that the friend from last time?”

I looked up from the book again, surprised at how direct and abrupt he was to ask. As a mature social person, I thought it was a consensus that no private matter should be asked.

“Yes, it’s him.”

I think the “discomfort” in my expression was a little obvious, and he felt it.

“Sorry, did I ask something that shouldn’t be asked?” He Weizhou quickly explained, “When it comes to small animals, I will become particularly lacking in emotional intelligence, don’t be angry. Just… that friend of yours looks a little temperamental. , I’m not sure if he has enough patience to deal with a car accident dog. Dogs, like people, need constant love and encouragement.”

Although a little offended, but not angry, and … he said is also a fact.

“Just let him keep it temporarily, and soon the puppy will be delivered to its real adopter,” I said.

He Weizhou looked relieved: “That’s good.”

He Weizhou and I are both business seats and we were given priority to board the plane. As a result, he sat next to me, which made me a little dumbfounded, and he also issued a “what a coincidence” again. exclaimed.

This Doctor He looked intellectual and sparse, but in fact he was very good at chatting and could chat about anything. Astronomy, geography, music and religion, there is no one that he can’t talk to, and they chat happily along the way.

He is even a vinyl record fan. Knowing that I have a vinyl disc of the Bach a cappella cello suite played by Fournier, I am so excited that I must lend him a listen, he can take pictures of his collection. , let me exchange.

After getting off the plane, he asked me if I had a car to pick me up and said that he parked his car in the airport garage. If I didn’t have a car to pick me up, I could take his car and it happened to be on the way.

My first reaction was to refuse, at this point, I was afraid that he would collide with Shang Muxiao just like last time. But before the words came out, they swallowed them in time.

Why should I be afraid that they will not bump into each other? This idea is wrong.

I have already broken up with Shang Muxiao, is it possible that I need his consent to be friends with someone?

After I figured it out, in order to prove that I didn’t care, I generously invited He Weizhou to go to my house and get the plate of Fournier that he was thinking of.

What I said really came to his heart. He was overjoyed when he heard the words, and his cheeks flushed slightly with excitement.

“Won’t it bother you?”

“No.”

He Weizhou’s car was an ordinary hatchback sedan, which was much lower than Shang Muxiao’s Hummer, so I could get in on my own.

He Weizhou is very skilled at storing wheelchairs. As soon as I got in the car, he had already folded the wheelchair and moved it into the trunk.

The vehicle drove out of the parking garage smoothly, and the snow in Qingwan still did not stop. With a dozen lights, you could clearly see the blizzard swirling in the sky.

He Weizhou was playing his own CD in his car. It was a symphony by Beethoven, which sounded very imposing.

“You can sleep for a while if you’re tired, I’ll call you when I get there.” He turned the music down a bit.

I was indeed a little tired, so I didn’t show any kindness to him. I folded my arms and leaned on the seat to take a nap.

I slept for about a few minutes, and woke up quickly. After that, I just closed my eyes and didn’t fall asleep.

The car stopped at a red light, and I felt He Weizhou beside me looking at me, it was a weird look – he was watching my legs.

It’s too rude to look like this when you’re awake. You can only look after you fall asleep. There are many such people, and it’s not a big deal.

I pretended to be asleep and ignored it until the vehicle was moving again.

When I got downstairs to my house, it was almost eleven o’clock. I asked He Weizhou to go upstairs with me and find the Fournier from the record cabinet for him. The night was too late, and he was no longer there.

Shang Muxiao’s things were as they were when I left, and he didn’t seem to be here at all.

It’s… as expected. Maybe to him, these are just a bunch of garbage, and they have no other value except to help him capture me better.

He Weizhou walked out with a contented face on his face, and when he reached the door, he suddenly turned his head and asked, “Can I ask you out?”

I was stunned, not sure of his intentions.

“Listening to a concert together, I rarely get an appointment with a good friend.” He continued.

It turned out to be this kind of “appointment”, and I thought that Shang Muxiao said he was really interested in me.

I nodded and didn’t say too much: “If I’m free.”

He Weizhou didn’t care too much, waved goodbye to me, and took the elevator downstairs.

Turning back to the room, just two minutes later, there was another knock on the door. I thought it was He Weizhou who forgot something, shouted “come here”, and went over to open the door.

As soon as the door opened, Shang Muxiao appeared in front of him.

There was snow on his head and shoulders. Wearing a black down jacket, with both hands in the pockets, the open placket reveals a soft white turtleneck sweater.

Just seeing him makes my heart throb. I wanted to close the door reflexively, but he quickly grabbed the crack of the door and opened it.

The door panel hit the wall, making a loud noise, and Shang Muxiao walked in with a blank face.

“You blocked me.”

I stepped back nervously and pulled away from him: “Didn’t you say that when we break up, we must share it cleanly and never be sloppy?”

He saw the cardboard box beside the door, Bend over to lift the lid, and take out your own crystal trophy from inside.

“So you’re determined to break up with me, aren’t you?” he asked, holding the trophy.

I secretly took a deep breath and said, “Yes.”

He sneered, as if he had seen through my trick: “I saw that veterinarian. Any business trip is a lie to me. You are actually with him these two days. Let’s go together?”

His throat rolled twice, holding back the explanation.

What about misunderstandings? I hate being misunderstood if I care, I don’t care anymore, I don’t need to explain it to him.

“So what? We’ve already broken up.”

He held the trophy tightly, the snow on his body had melted, and the strands of hair fell on his face, leaving traces in the corners of his eyes.

He was stunned for a moment, stared at me, and whispered in a dreamy voice: “So you are really with him…”

I pursed my lips tightly and stopped talking.

“Okay, very good.” He looked at the balcony and said, “If you don’t want to throw it away, I don’t need it anyway. As for this…” He raised his hand suddenly and smashed the crystal trophy to the ground.

The trophy was torn apart in an instant, all over the place.

“…Please help me throw the trash can.”

I stared at the debris that splashed at my feet, as if my heart was also shattered.

“And this…” Shang Muxiao took out his right hand, which had been in his pocket, and I realized that he was wrapped in thick bandages from his knuckles to his palm.

Before he could be surprised by his hand injury, he saw that he didn’t feel pain, he roughly tore off the star stud on his earlobe and threw it to the ground.

“Give it back to you, you can take it to someone else.” It

might have been scratched by the ear studs, and blood oozing from his earlobe not long after, dripped onto the velvet jacket. He touched the wound with the back of his bandaged hand, put it in front of his eyes, and frowned with irritability.

The snow-white bandages were dyed bright red, I opened my mouth, and in my heart I repeatedly told myself to ignore it, to act as if nothing had happened, until my body trembled slightly.

Shang Muxiao held the door handle and turned to look at me, his eyes and voice were cold to the core, and he looked like he hated this relationship and would never mention it again.

“Indeed, breaking up has to be decisive. It’s nothing special, and it’s not necessarily sincere anyway.” After giving me a deep look, he left resolutely, “Goodbye, Professor Bei.”

Siye was stunned, and I was sure that he would not come back. I slowly spit out the suffocation that had accumulated in my chest, and my whole body relaxed from a tense state.

I’ve always known him to be a downright “villain”, to apply Russell’s ethics, which may be a subconscious self-alert that I don’t want to have too much interaction with him. But it didn’t work. This kind of knowledge didn’t stop me from getting deeper and deeper. For some things, human beings always know that they can’t do it.

It has also been verified again that Russell’s ethics is indeed not convincing.

Pick up the trophy pieces scattered on the ground and put them all into the previous box. Picking it up next to the sofa, I found the small ear stud, I rubbed its surface, and finally threw it into the box along with the fragments.

In the end, I couldn’t be Shang Muxiao’s gem, and he couldn’t be my star either.

This relationship was wrong from the beginning, and now, it is finally back on track.

[End of This Chapter]