Ferocious Dog of Old - Chapter 122

[Chapter 122]

Now is the time when the early spring is warm and cold, and the heating has been turned off again. If the air conditioner is not turned on, the house will still be a little cold after staying for a long time.

Tao Huainan’s quilt covered his arms, and his exposed shoulders were a little cold.

Chi Cheng’s “pain” made Tao Huainan press his face tightly against him, and being surrounded by Chi Cheng’s breath like this made Tao Huainan feel a little more secure.

“Don’t stick it, don’t you get bored?” Chi Cheng moved to the side so that Tao Huainan could breathe the air, and said to him, “Like a kitten.”

“Puppy,” Tao Huainan said.

Chi Cheng smiled and said, “Okay, puppy.”

Chi Cheng should be fierce and impatient. He speaks so gently and softly, but it makes people flustered.

“From that day to now, I haven’t dared to think about it.” Chi Cheng lowered his head, looked at Tao Huainan and said, “As long as I think that you can’t hear or see at the time, I feel breathless.

” Think…” Tao Huainan said with red eyes.

“What were you thinking at that time?” Chi Cheng asked him, “When I couldn’t hear it.”

Tao Huainan actually didn’t want to talk about this, it was nothing to him, it was all over. The person who speaks will not be sadder than the person who listens, he doesn’t want to say it.

But now facing Chi Cheng, Tao Huainan is absolutely candid, and he never wanted to hide anything from Chi Cheng.

“I can’t remember,” Tao Huainan said honestly. “At that time, my mind was very confused and I was afraid. I was confused every day.”

“Have you hated me?” Chi Cheng asked.

“No,” Tao Huainan raised his face and asked blankly, “Why do you hate you?”

“Because I didn’t find out,” Chi Cheng touched his ears, Tao Huainan’s ears were thin and the shape of the earlobes was beautiful, “You are so When I’m afraid, I don’t know, and I don’t care about you.”

“It has nothing to do with you,” Tao Huainan frowned, “I didn’t say it myself, how would you know if I didn’t say it.”

“How could I not know?” Chi Cheng recalled Tao Huainan at that time, “Obviously It’s right in front of me, so obvious, I didn’t expect it.”

Tao Huainan sat up, touched Chi Cheng’s hand, and shook it gently: “Little brother, don’t think so.”

“Every time you call me ‘little brother’ After that, when you were silent and didn’t speak, you couldn’t have hoped that I could guess. You don’t want to say it, but you also hope that I can hug you, is it a child?”

Tao Huainan turned to his direction, Zhang He opened his mouth, but couldn’t make a sound.

“You’re so timid, you’re afraid of being like that,” Chi Cheng raised his hand and touched his head, stroking the top of his head to the end of his hair, as if after many years, comforting the pale boy at that time, “Little Brother didn’t guess.”

Tao Huainan sniffed, it wasn’t the first time Chi Cheng called him “child”, but it was the first time he called himself “little brother”.

“I was young at that time, and I didn’t think of many things that I should have thought of, and I only had hatred in my heart.” Chi Cheng said.

Tao Huainan stretched out his hand to cover his mouth, preventing him from continuing: “little brother…don’t say that.”

Chi Cheng kissed his palm and took his hand away: “I almost lost you. Tao Huainan

still shook his head and said, “No way.” ”

Why do you have to let me go?” Chi Cheng looked at him and asked, “Are you afraid that I will stop you?”

It’s just that you can hear the pressure.

“Let’s not talk about this, okay?” Tao Huainan asked in Chi Cheng’s direction with a nasal voice, “Okay?” ” Speak

,” Chi Cheng didn’t answer, “I want to hear it.”

Tao Huainan also felt cold, but now he was sweating, thinly attached to his back, making him vulnerable.

Tao Huainan pursed his lips, such a delay made him sad.

He first denied what Chi Cheng said last time, or only half of it: “At that time… I didn’t want to die, I wanted to live well.”

Chi Cheng didn’t say anything, Tao Huainan said again: “I will be very active. Healing, I love you, I love Xiaodong, you didn’t hold me so big in your palms to make me die.”

Tao Huainan was telling the truth, but Chi Cheng was able to pick it out from his words. At the core, he asked him, “What if it’s not cured?” After

he asked this sentence, Tao Huainan was speechless.

Chi Cheng tilted his head slightly, as if puzzled, and asked Tao Huainan, “Can’t you be my puppy if you don’t hear me?”

Tao Huainan’s heart was almost broken. His nose was sore and painful, and he endured the surge of emotions. Tao Huainan said, “That kind of puppy… Except ‘I love you’, he can’t say anything. He can’t speak, can’t communicate, and has become a A closed animal.”

“So should I be abandoned?” Chi Cheng frowned and continued to ask with a bit of paranoia, “Isn’t it my dog if I don’t talk or communicate?”

“Yes…” Tao Huainan hugged him, pressed against his profile, and kept saying, “It’s your dog.”

“You don’t want to live like that, why do you have to drive me away?” Chi Cheng was still asking, “I’m as real as a fool. If you’re gone, I won’t be in pain when you die?”

Chi Cheng asked every sentence seriously, without the slightest sarcasm. He is like a child now, desperately wanting an answer.

Tao Huainan put his eyes on Chi Cheng’s shoulders, and the damp heat was dyed between them. Tao Huainan said, “If one day I can’t cure it completely, I hope you hate me at that time.”

Chi Cheng hugged him, put his hand on his back, stroked from the shoulder blade to the coccyx, Tao Huainan trembled slightly .

“I don’t know the reason why you hate me. The more you love, the more you hate. After hating, you can live a good life. I think you have a new life, a new life, and a lover.” Tao Huainan said “lovers” sometimes After a long pause, he took a deep breath and then continued, “If you know that I chose to leave because of such desperate reasons, you will not hate me, but will only feel sorry for me.”

Tao Huainan’s tears dizzy on Chi Cheng’s shoulders. Open, as if to burn a hole in the skin.

“I think you hate me, I don’t want you to feel bad for me.” Tao Huainan hid in Chi Cheng’s arms, talking about his cowardice at the time, “I can’t go through if I feel bad, I will feel that my fate is unfair, and I will hate the world. Brother never again. You can do charity, but you can’t save his brother. You won’t let yourself go, you will betray me if you pass, you will be my dog for the rest of your life and shut yourself up.”

Tao Huainan said these His face was buried on Chi Cheng’s shoulder all the time, and what he said was all that he could think of in his chaotic mind during so many days when he couldn’t hear on and off that summer.

At that time, he was just a little boy who was guarded by his brothers and did not grow up completely. Every day he seemed to be buried in the deep sea, in the darkness of extinction. Only by thinking about this did he realize that he still had two most important connections with the world.

Thinking about it now, it’s still naive, childish, and even a little silly.

Tao Huainan pressed against Chi Cheng tightly, his eyelashes were wet with tears, a few of them were bunched up in a small cluster, and because his eyes were against Chi Cheng’s shoulders, they were a little crooked.

Chi Cheng didn’t speak, raised his face and kissed his forehead.

“Don’t make trouble with yourself, okay little brother?” Tao Huainan took a deep breath and wiped his face with the back of his hand, “Time just can’t be repeated, if I could, I wouldn’t be so stupid.”

Chi Cheng Looking in the direction of the window, he put his hand on Tao Huainan’s head.

“I always dream that you are dead.” Chi Cheng said.

“I won’t,” Tao Huainan said, “even if I can’t hear anymore, I won’t die.”

He raised his hand on Chi Cheng’s left chest, touched the scar, and said warmly, “If I can’t hear you, I’ll stay in the room every day. Just hug me when you come back from get off work, we can have sex too, I will Remember to say ‘I love you’ to you every day. I’m not going out, really be your dog.”

[End of This Chapter]