First-Class Lawyer - Chapter 126

[Chapter 124 The Past (1)]

This is not the first time Yan Suizhi has approached.

Before, he had clearly taken the initiative to do more intimate actions, and every time he scratched his heart, but there was no such thing –

he didn’t say anything, but it was inexplicably sad.

Gu Yan was stunned for a moment, and said in a low voice, “I didn’t want you to see those.”

“Nothing.” Yan Suizhi’s voice pressed against his shoulder, a little dull, but still had a slight smile: “It’s okay, it’s just a case, it’s not a big deal. I just wanted to play a hooligan because of your good looks.”

Gu Yan tightened his arms. His embrace is not at all different from the character he usually reveals, the warm body temperature wraps people in for no reason, and the breath invades his nose little by little.

Yan Suizhi’s fingers that had been rinsed in the water for a long time became warm again. From the fingertips to the palms, they filled the heart along the blood vessels, like a tide that filled the chest cavity.

The last time I felt this way was in that attic. Gu Yan told him in a low voice that he would always dream that he was still alive after the bombing.

The last time, it was Gu Yan leaning against the door, looking up at him on the stairs, and said good night in a deep voice.

Further forward, in the kitchen on the first floor of the villa, Gu Yan looked down at him, tilted his head and kissed the corner of his mouth.

Then there was a long period of time. He couldn’t remember how many years it was…

This feeling of fullness and soreness in the chest always made people feel the urge to say something.

Yan Sui’s chin rested on Gu Yan’s shoulder, her eyes were hidden in the shadow of her eyelashes and fell on a certain point in the void. After being quiet for a while, he suddenly said in a low voice, “Gu Yan…”

“Huh?”

“Why did you choose me as the direct teacher in the first place?”

“Because of your lectures I heard before.” Gu Yan paused, then said: “And… I saw you on Helan Star a long time ago.”

“How early?” Yan Suizhi’s tone was slightly surprised.

“When I was eight or nine years old, I was in an orphanage.” Gu Yan said.

His grandfather, the judge, would take him to the orphanage on weekends. Most of the children there were like him, their parents were soldiers who died in a battle. The difference is that he has a maternal grandfather, they don’t.

He didn’t know what his grandfather’s original intention was to take him to the orphanage regularly. Maybe he hoped that he would never forget the suffering, maybe he hoped that he would be infected and become a kind person. My grandfather was not a man of words and heart-to-heart, and he never spoke to him.

However, the character he formed later was indeed inseparable from this experience.

The time he met Yan Suizhi was a winter afternoon when the sun was surprisingly good, casting a large bright light on the lawn of the orphanage. This is more comfortable than any artificial temperature control, so many children play on the lawn, swings and play equipment, basking in the sun.

The grandfather went to the person in charge with the donated materials and left him on the lawn.

“Why didn’t I take you with me?” Yan Suizhi asked.

Gu Yan said in a low voice, “Who knows, maybe when he comes back, he can see me and other people playing and rolling in a ball.”

Yan Suizhi laughed, still a little lazy, “Then you do what he wants. ”

No, I found a bench in the corner and waited for him.” The

bench faces the lively lawn, and when you turn around, you can see the office building where the dean is located. The grandfather who was too boring and could see in time was the best place that Gu Yan could find when he was a child.

He stayed on the bench for a while when he saw a figure come out of the office building.

He turned to look, only to find that it was not his grandfather, but a young man.

Very young, probably just turned twenty.

The other party dresses very well, and looks slender and tall. When he came down the steps, the hem of his coat was slightly lifted by the breeze.

After the man came out of the building, he did not leave immediately, but stood by the lawn for a while, watching the playful children.

The sun fell on his face, and his skin was very white, and his eyes were like a layer of clear glass, and the light was reversed.

He was gentle, but not very happy.

This was the conclusion Gu Yan came to when he looked at him at that time.

After a while, the young man noticed Gu Yan who was sitting alone. He walked over unhurriedly, bent down slightly and asked him, “Why are you being alone and making trouble with others?”

He thought that Gu Yan was also a member of the orphanage, and for some reason he couldn’t participate in the crowd. Go play.

“I’m waiting for someone.” Gu Yan replied at that time.

“Waiting for who?”

“Grandfather.” The

young man nodded, only to realize that he had made a mistake.

During the conversation, the aunt who was looking after the children on the lawn noticed the young man and came over to greet him.

“Then wait, I’m leaving.” The young man waved at Gu Yan lazily and walked away to talk to his aunt.

When talking to others, young people will smile and appear more gentle. “I heard a few words sporadically, and I know that you are going to donate money, and it is not the first time.” Gu Yan

paused for a moment, and then said, “But I have only met you once.”

I didn’t speak for a while, and after a while, I made a soft “ah” and said, “I have an impression. But it’s normal that I haven’t met me again. I rarely go on weekends because I always meet a lot of people on weekends. That time was only because There are temporary changes to the diving club’s arrangements, so I will go to Helan Star on weekends.”

Hearing the diving club, Gu Yan remembered what he once said, “Dive often at that time?”

Yan Suizhi said “um”. For some reason, when he mentioned this topic, he became quieter again. Gu Yanneng was keenly aware that his emotions had fallen again, and after a while, he whispered in a recollection: “It wasn’t that time, I started diving very early, around 15 years old, I was very addicted and felt This sport is really amazing.”

“15 years old?” Gu Yan asked.

Intuition told him that Yan Suizhi was trying little by little to give him the things in his heart.

“Well. My parents just passed away at that time…” Yan Suizhi’s voice was very light, as if he was talking about ordinary things, or maybe after too many years, he had not felt so deeply. Did you say that? My mother had the disease that the generation of Helan Star often had, and the genetic problem was also passed on to me. But I was not as serious as her. She was in a very bad condition that year… You may know, The life expectancy with that kind of disease was almost at that time. The hospital issued many notices, asking my father to choose between genetic surgery and taking care of her. The result is obvious, my father made the gene source.”

At that time . Gene surgery, especially this kind of surgery, requires a healthy gene source. In order to avoid more accidents, most people will choose people who are close to them.

“In the end, it’s actually me who got on the operating table.” Yan Suizhi said, “That kind of surgery is very risky, including those who provide the gene source.”

He looked out the window and blinked slightly, saying: ” I got lucky, they didn’t.”

People are always reluctant to believe what they don’t want to accept, and they always wonder if there is something behind it. Although 15-year-old Yan Suizhi is well protected, there are still some conspiracy theories.

“My parents didn’t close their eyes on the operating table…it took a few days.” Yan Suizhi said, “I suspected that there was something wrong with the operation, that the doctor was malicious, that the nurse was careless, and that everyone involved in the operation was suspicious. The person who performed the surgery. But my parents rejected that idea. In the last few days, they kept stressing that the risks of surgery were unavoidable, and they didn’t want me to go to the horns.”

That almost constituted the last words of his parents. I hope he will not spend his life on this matter, not stand still, not be dragged into the muddy water, and not be full of doubts because of it. I hope he can still treat others fairly, accept others with kindness, and live a long, ordinary but happy life with occasional surprises.

This, like that birthday greeting, almost became a demon for Yan Sui for the next ten years.

“I can’t help but listen to the last words, after all, they were the last thing they left to me.” Yan Suizhi said, “So that year I found a lot of things for myself to do, so as not to be idle, because once I was idle, I would There will be a lot of ideas, some not so beautiful and dark ideas, which are contrary to their hopes.”

Thinking about it now, he can’t even remember what he was busy with that year, because no matter what he did, his heart seemed to be full. Empty and echoless wilderness, the heart beats up and can’t touch the top, and it falls without a sound.

Sometimes he would stop for no apparent reason while walking, staring at a certain spot on the side of the road, not knowing where he was going or where he would turn his head back.

He has a lot of money, a long time to spend, just no home.

“At that time, I felt that the only thing that could make my heart beat twice was diving.” Yan Suizhi said, “When you inhale oxygen under deep pressure, you will have a feeling that your chest is full…”

That kind of fullness is a bit full. The feeling of being sour and soft always gives people an illusion – it seems quite satisfied, and it doesn’t seem to be so empty.

At that time, he was always wearing a diving suit, sitting on the edge of the second floor of the diving boat, his hair was dripping wet, he propped up his hands, squinted at the sea where he could not see his head, and there were some dazzling jumping Sunlight.

Next to him, there was the coach’s chattering words, which he regarded as meaningless background sound, and he was fascinated while listening.

After a short rest, plunged into the quieter sea.

Wait for the oxygen to fill the heart.

For the teenage Yan Suizhi, this taste is probably more attractive than any drug in the world, and it is too easy to be addicted.

It wasn’t until later that he encountered the accident of Young Master Manson, and experienced a lack of oxygen underwater, and he suddenly felt… This is really boring.

“In this way, I’m pretty good. I’m not even in my teens. I’ve gone wrong. I’ve tried my best to correct my route. I’ve tried a lot of things. If they’re still there, they’ll probably drag me into hype.” Yan Suizhi thought for a while, then smiled, “My mother is always exaggerating when she speaks, and my father is a temperamental person. He would probably just nod his head and say, ‘Your mother is right’…”

He said, reminiscing After a while, he said again: “It’s a pity, I can’t hear it.”

No matter what he did, no matter how big or small, even if it was just an anecdote he met on the road, he had no one to tell.

Over time, I gradually got used to not mentioning it to anyone.

He had been empty for decades, and finally met Gu Yan.

[End of This Chapter]