Picking Up Stars - Chapter 60

[Chapter 60]

Qin Fang talked. After he finished speaking, he turned to look at Xing Yan. Xing Yan was wearing a thin sports jacket. The wind was blowing from behind him, and the clothes were attached to Xing Yan’s back. He really lost a lot of weight.

Xing Yan leaned on his legs with both hands, and held the harmonica in one hand. He looked forward, his sleeves bulging forward in the wind.

After the ceremony, the two of them met twice. The first time they failed to speak properly, Qin Fang beat Xing Yan, then turned and left. The second time, one was in the car and the other was outside. They looked at each other for a few minutes, gave each other a look and a movement, and then left.

This time, An An Shengsheng is finally sitting here, separated by a very close distance, and can chat quietly and peacefully.

Qin Fang asked, “You keep saying that you want to talk to me, what do you want to talk about?”

Xing Yan’s voice was low, and it was Qin Fang’s favorite voice. He said, “Yes, I want to talk to you. But you are asking me that now, and I don’t know where to start.”

Qin Fang smiled and said, “Then let me ask, and I will ask you to answer.”

Xing Yan nodded and said yes.

What Qin Fang wanted to ask should be to open his mouth, but now he doesn’t even know where to start. The atmosphere was a bit stiff, and it felt like there was a layer of transparent film between them. The previous closeness was separated by a layer, and no one could start the chat.

This was a bit embarrassing. The two of them looked at each other without expression and didn’t speak. After a while, they both laughed at the same time. Qin Fang shook his head with a smile, sighed and said, “Hey, I’m really uncomfortable.”

Xing Yan was also smiling, a faint smile on his lips, but he didn’t see it in his eyes.

After laughing, I felt a lot more relaxed. Qin Fang leaned back on his arms, leaned back a little, and asked, “You didn’t want to be with me all the time… right?”

Qin Fang said. Focusing on the point, there is no buffer at all, which is in line with his style.

Xing Yan still kept his original posture and did not move, without denying it.

Qin Fang smiled: “So breaking up is the result that you decided at the beginning? Have a serious talk, and then break up?”

He asked very calmly, not excited, nor questioning, but ordinary sentence. Qin Fang couldn’t see Xing Yan’s face from this angle, only his back.

“So my initial guesses were correct,” Qin Fang continued, “I met a player.”

Xing Yan shook his head unexpectedly. He looked sideways at Qin Fang and said solemnly, “That’s what you said, not me.”

Qin Fang raised his eyebrows, and Xing Yan said, “I never said I was a player.”

Xing Yan sipped. He pursed his lips and said, “I really didn’t think long at first, but I’m not playing.”

Qin Fang didn’t quite understand and kept looking at him. Xing Yan looked into his eyes, Xing Yan’s eyes were very deep and could suck people in. Qin Fang asked him, “What do you mean?”

This was the first time Xing Yan had been talking to someone about feelings, and he really didn’t know how to speak. He turned back, lowered his head and thought for a while, and then asked Qin Fang, “Have you been thinking about the future since the very beginning of your relationship?” Qin Fang thought about

his question, and Xing Yan asked again: ” Have you been thinking about my future since the first day you were with me?”

Xing Yan asked two questions that Qin Fang hadn’t thought about, and now Qin Fang is a little confused after being asked like this. Of course he thought about the future and the future, but when he started to think about these, it was indeed a bit vague.

“You said I played with you, but I didn’t.” Xing Yan turned back, still looking ahead, “I want to chase you, I like you, it’s all true.” The

sudden liking sounded heart-warming now . Painful and empty. The result is here, and then turn to look at the past likes, how to see how sad.

Qin Fang sat up straight, his shoulders were flush with Xing Yan, he looked at Xing Yan’s profile, the line of Xing Yan’s chin became clearer after he lost weight.

“You don’t believe me when I say this now,” Xing Yan whispered, “You are too angry.”

Qin Fang said, “I believe it.”

Xing Yan looked at him, and Qin Fang said, “I am really angry. But you can say whatever you want, and I will believe it if you say it. I am here today to listen to you. Yes, if you don’t believe me, I won’t come.”

Xing Yan nodded, and Qin Fang smiled at him.

“That’s what I want to say,” Xing Yan repeated while looking at Qin Fang, speaking slowly, “I’m not a player, and I’m not playing with you. There are some things I did wrong. Nothing to say, I don’t deny it. I want to tell you this sentence is not to let you down or whatever, I can almost guess what decision you will make, I say this can’t change the result, but I have to say. Qin Fang asked him: ”

Why?”

Xing Yan said: “In order to let you know that this is an equal relationship, you and I are equal, and there is no such thing as who controls who. The term ‘playing’ itself seems incongruous. So respect, I don’t, I respect you, and I respect feelings. I made a mistake, but don’t be sad.”

From the beginning to the end, as long as Xing Yan said something seriously, no Qin Fang could stand it. Xing Yan would rather be punched by Qin Fangton just to say, I didn’t play with you, don’t be sad. His few words made Qin Fang’s eyes red and his heart softened. Xing Yan usually talks too little. He doesn’t talk about himself. He doesn’t know how to talk about feelings, so when he talks like this, he always goes straight and doesn’t go around in circles.

This sentence made Qin Fang almost unable to talk, and his nose was sore. Every sentence of Xing Yan is sincere, and sincerity is moving.

Qin Fang didn’t speak for a long time, and he didn’t speak to Xing Yan until the emotion subsided.

“I really can’t see through you, sometimes I feel like I know you well, but I don’t. Like right now, you’re sitting here telling me this, I think you’re sincere, and I don’t even want to fucking go abroad Forget all the messy contradictions, just pretend that there is no such thing, we will go down now and continue later. Including the half year we have been together, I have never felt that you were insincere, and I even thought that you liked more than me. But in the end, the truth is different from what I thought. The feelings you gave me were half-concealed. I felt that you were right in front of my eyes, but you were like a fog, and I couldn’t touch it at all. ”

Xing Yan didn’t say anything, Qin Fang said, “The whole world knows that you are going abroad and I’m the last one. This really doesn’t match up with sincerity, but I still believe what you say. It’s amazing.”

Qin Fang himself laughed . He smiled and shook his head: “I never doubted what you said.”

They sat on the roof chatting like this, the wind blew their clothes up again, the clothes were empty under them, and their hearts were a little empty. They talked a lot, and the atmosphere was not always depressed. Sometimes they made each other laugh, looked at each other, and then smiled tacitly.

Qin Fang asked Xing Yan when he started to be interested in him.

Xing Yan said it has been there from the very beginning.

Qin Fang raised his eyebrows: “In the beginning? During the fight? Could it be the time when you bumped into the shoulder?”

Xing Yan shook his head: “That’s not true. At that time, you didn’t leave me anything other than being handsome and capable. Qin Fang laughed for a long time, and then said, ”

No one can pretend to be you in terms of pretending. You can still think that others are pretending.

” .

At that time, both of them were quite capable of pretending, no one was better than the other, and it was probably annoying to look at each other.

Qin Fang asked when it was, and Xing Yan said that he really liked Qin Fang when it was the library.

“You sit across from me. I thought you would continue to act like you did before, but you suddenly laughed at me, and you laughed so hard that I couldn’t stop laughing. At that time, I was very confused. What would the enemy laugh at when they met you?” Xing Yanyao He shook his head and said, “You broke my emotions, and my expression almost collapsed.” The two of

them never talked about this, and it’s just too funny to talk about it now. At that time, Xing Yan Fan’er was still very good, and every time his face was sullen, the cool brother character never fell. Now it’s really interesting to listen to him talk about Cool Brother’s heart in person.

Xing Yan was telling the truth. Qin Fang’s smile at that time was too powerful. Xing Yan could clearly feel his heartbeat at that time. Maybe it was love at first sight. It is indeed very strongly tempted.

“Then you want to chase me?” Qin Fang asked.

“No,” Xing Yan shook his head, “I didn’t even pay attention to you.”

The answer was too surprising, so Qin Fang laughed again and asked him, “You make me laugh and you still don’t want to pay attention to me? Why?

” Yan replied indifferently: “Because I’m cool, I’m cold.”

Qin Fang was hahaha for a while.

Xing Yan was obviously tempted at the time. Qin Fang was like a fool to post on it. He added WeChat and asked people to occupy seats. to send it into the mouth of the person.

Qin Fang is an easy-going person, and the more you get in touch with him, the more you like him. He is a sunny person, and such a person makes people yearn for.

“Actually, this is the first time I like someone. I can pretend that I can like someone. I didn’t like anyone before. Others probably won’t like me. I can only pretend to be liked in TV dramas. In reality, everyone else has to scold them behind their backs.”

Qin Fang still laughed, Xing Yan was too funny.

“At that time, graduation was still a long way off. There was still more than a year, and the school application hadn’t returned to me. It was too far away at the time. The first time I fell in love, I fell in love with a handsome guy, and you always came to me. , I feel so good.”

Xing Yan said it very naturally at the time, and he didn’t feel embarrassed. After all, it has been so much better since then, so many intimate things have been done, and there is nothing left to say about those hazy likes.

“I liked someone and wanted to fall in love, that’s what I thought at the time. At that time, I really didn’t think that the future was very far, because the future was still far away and very vague. Only after we got together can we be qualified to talk about it. At that time, I didn’t have the mind to go. Think about that, it’s not time.”

In the early days of dating, you only look at the moment and don’t want to. Young people are like this when they make friends and fall in love. Heart, pursuit, love, and then consider the future. No one thinks about the eternity when they are excited, and it is too much to think about whether to chase it or not.

Qin Fang also felt that what he said made sense, smiled and asked: “Then why don’t you deny that I said you are a player?”

“I’m not used to talking about this, and it’s not very important. At that time, I really didn’t want you to continue to struggle. When Xing Yan said this, he glanced at Qin Fang and said in a low voice, “I wanted to fall in love with you at first, but then I don’t want to talk anymore. The words you said on my birthday made me reluctant.” , it’s good for you to be so confused. My personality is not suitable for falling in love with people. If you talk about it, it will be ruined. It’s better to be brothers and not brothers like that. You are too good.”

Qin Fang raised his eyebrows and said, “Late It’s too late .”

“Well, it’s too late.” Xing Yan nodded and said, “Brother Fang is too strong, I can’t go back.”

“Nonsense,” Qin Fang laughed, “I’m tempted where to go, you If you retreat, I will chase after you.”

[End of This Chapter]