Picking Up Stars - Chapter 61

[Chapter 61]

Some stories are bound to happen, and they will definitely go through this period. Now that the relationship has arrived, they can’t avoid it if they want to.

In fact, Qin Fang has become the leader of their feelings since then. Every step forward is led by Qin Fang, and Xing Yan has completely handed over the control to him.

Including the fact that they were together in the end, it was also because Qin placed Xing Yan in the snow and kissed Xing Yan on the mouth.

These processes are so happy to chat, and love is always happy at first. It would be nice to talk about that, but the story doesn’t stop there, and they don’t just stop there. Then it was not so pleasant to talk down, and Qin Fang still had to ask the questions that should be said.

But after all, there are so many happy things ahead, Qin Fang is still relaxed when he asks the exit.

“So why didn’t you tell me when you wanted to go abroad? I want to know what you think.”

Xing Yan remained silent and did not speak, Qin Fang continued: “Did you not want to stay with me in the future? Just tell the truth. Or should I guess first?” Xing

Yan nodded and said, “You can guess.”

In fact, Qin Fang had been thinking about this matter between the two of them for so many days, and he almost thought about it. People are really tempted, they can’t hide their eyes, Xing Yan can’t be fake to him, how is it possible.

“I guess you really thought so at the beginning, fall in love, give me a dream, and then you leave. At that time, the relationship was not deep, and you felt that you could get away when you left. Give me a card and wait for you. When we go, let me decide our future path.”

Qin Fang bent one leg, put his arm on his knee, and continued in a low voice: “Then the relationship was too deep, and I was reluctant to let go, but you didn’t dare to say it. Well, after all, you have already laid the foundation for your dishonesty, you will say it later, if I get angry, we will have to leave, you will lose the opportunity.”

Xing Yan kept listening to him, without saying a word, Qin Fang laughed Going down, he asked him, “Did I guess right?”

Xing Yan thought about it and said, “It’s half right.”

Qin Fang raised his eyebrows, and Xing Yan said, “Or it’s the other way around.”

This answer was the only explanation Qin Fang came up with for so many days, and now Xing Yan said it was only half right. Qin Fang looked at him and waited for him to speak.

Xing Yan lowered his head and said, “I didn’t think about it at first, I didn’t think about it much. Go abroad, go abroad, leave, you can follow me anyway, or if you don’t go out, you stay here, It’s not that you can’t fall in love in a different place. You can go to me, and I can come back to you. At that time, I didn’t even think that you can still be with me at this time. Maybe you will separate from me after you feel new. It ‘s over.”

Qin Fang opened his mouth, but in the end he didn’t interrupt him. Xing Yan continued: “Afterwards, the relationship was really too deep, and when I got it, I was afraid of losing it, and I was afraid of going from nothing to nothing. After you were with me, I couldn’t let go, but I didn’t dare to catch it. The stars are bright and beautiful. If I want to go abroad, you must follow me immediately. You have said this yourself.”

He did say it, and Qin Fang nodded: “Just go to school, one or two years? Three years? I don’t think it’s anything.”

Xing Yan shook his head, smiled lightly, cleared his throat, and said in a low voice, “I just…don’t plan to come back.”

Qin Fang blinked and moved slightly Stiff, looked at Xing Yan silently.

Xing Yan looked at him, stared into his eyes and said, “I told you, I have been trying to leave. Now I tell you that I have no plans to come back. This is what I plan for myself, But I don’t want to part with you, I can’t bear you. If I told you this before, what would you say?”

Qin Fang frowned and said, “Do you think I can’t follow you? It won’t go on like this?”

Xing Yan said: “So your answer?” Qin Fang looked at him and said, ” It

doesn’t matter, you go. I can go when you really don’t come back. I don’t care much anyway.”

Xing Yan didn’t speak for a long time, nor did Qin Fang. They were both silent, if not for the wind, the air seemed still.

They still have a tacit understanding, and when it comes to this, there is no need to say anything about Xing Yan, Qin Fang has already understood.

“I don’t dare to change your life, why should I.” Xing Yan rubbed the harmonica in his hand and whispered, “The better you are, the more I dare not, I’m a rotten person. The love period has not yet passed. , you went with me when your mind was hot, where’s your brother? Where’s your dad? Your friends? If you don’t like it later, you think this kind of life is very tiring, then what? You have no way out.”

Again After a long silence, Qin Fang was speechless, Xing Yan played the harmonica. After he finished blowing, Qin Fang’s eyes were red, and he asked him, “So you have already sentenced me to death for this relationship, right? You feel that you can’t afford my life, so you made a decision to give up for me, Is that right, Brother Yan?”

Xing Yan shook his head gently in his eyes, but he didn’t deny it, he just said, “I even thought about not leaving, so I just assumed it didn’t happen, but this way You will definitely not accept the result, let you know that we have no other way but to separate.”

Just as Xing Yan can’t bear Qin Fang’s life, it makes no sense for Qin Fang to bear his life.

Qin Fang said, “fortunately you didn’t.”

Xing Yan smiled and said, “do you remember the night you watched the rain? I refunded the ticket the next morning. I really don’t know what to do next, how to get there. It ‘s all wrong.”

Xing Yan was really struggling, he thought too much. It would be much easier if he had been much more relaxed as he had been at the beginning, taking one step at a time, letting Qin Fang follow him, and letting Qin Fang become one of his followers.

Qin Fang also positioned himself in this way subconsciously, he could land wherever Xing Yan went, he could also go out when Xing Yan went abroad, and he would come back when Xing Yan came back. This sounds good, and Xing Yan also thought it was good at first, but after being together for a long time, he could no longer accept it. Qin Fang’s positioning for himself is wrong and unequal. No one should be a follower of another person, and Xing Yan is not willing.

But what is the way of equality between them Xing Yan can’t think of.

Qin Fang later lay back and looked at the sky. The cloud above was thicker, and after blocking the sun, no light could pass through. Xing Yan also lay down, lying next to him.

“Xingxing.” Xing Yan called him.

Qin Fang replied, “Huh?” Xing

Yan said softly, “I made a mistake in this question, and I don’t know how to answer it either. You can answer it.”

Qin Fang blinked, and still asked him lying down like that: “You Do you know where you are wrong?”

Xing Yan thought about it and said, “I don’t know, I can answer this question wrong.”

Qin Fang took out a small thing from his pocket, held it up to the sky, and used The other hand flicked lightly. He said: “This is a two-person question, you have to do it yourself, answer your own share, and you want to do it for me. You are a scholar but not everything you do is right, you wrote the wrong answer yourself, and now let me Answer it yourself, why don’t you understand, you can answer this question alone, and you can’t answer it alone.” The

thin little card in his hand was still very new, and it was the first time he took it out for use. He held it that way, turning it back and forth between his fingers.

“Xiao Gong said you can’t fall in love, but I think he’s talking nonsense.” Qin Fang took a deep breath, and it was a little cold in his lungs, he said, “Actually, it’s not that you can’t fall in love, you can’t love.”

Xing Yan looked at him, and Qin Fang said, “You can talk about love better than anyone else, and you talk like a proficiency. But you are really bad at dealing with relationships. After listening to you, it’s even worse than before. Angry. You answered this question so badly that it can’t be saved.”

Xing Yan nodded and said, “It’s really bad.”

Qin Fang said, “If you want to say that you are just playing, this paragraph Relationships are designed by you from the very beginning, then I have nothing to say, and I am not angry. This is your choice, I will definitely respect you, and no one can tie others together all the time. But if you say that you are not playing, You are serious, but if you make things like this and let us become what we are today, then you are wrong.”

“You said you respected me, respected your feelings, and let me not be sad.” Qin Fang put down his hands and slammed it on the ground softly, he said weakly, “It’s not because of your intentions or because of respect, if you I’m really a player, but I’m not sad anymore. The most terrible thing is that now, you don’t respect me and you don’t respect your relationship. It’s not that we don’t have a future, it’s that you didn’t give it. In your heart, you don’t believe that this relationship has a future.”

“You I don’t want to change my path, I want me to be myself. You are not willing to lose, you are so desperate that you even love me. You can’t change your path, because this is the stupidest answer, and it will kill you So this is a dead end, right.” Qin Fang turned his head to look at him after he finished speaking.

Xing Yan looked at the thick gray cloud and answered yes.

Qin Fang closed his eyes and slapped the card in Xing Yan’s hand. Xing Yan grabbed it subconsciously, Qin Fang’s hand remained in his palm for a moment, and there was a piece of cardboard between their palms.

“I’ve handed in the answer sheet. Since you have predicted the ending in your heart, let’s write the ending you gave.” Qin Fang said in a hoarse voice, “Have you ever thought that you struggled to see it as a dead end? It’s like throwing me away.”

Xing Yan’s eyelashes trembled, trembling a little. The end of his beautiful eyes looked a little red at the moment, and there was some panic in his heart.

“You go to finish reading your book, and I won’t follow you either. I’ll do what you think. I’ll go my own way, and we’ll each go our separate ways.” Qin Fang grabbed Xing Yan’s finger and said to him, “No need. I said that you also know that you are wrong, I can’t forgive your mistake, I didn’t plan to forgive today, but I’m even more angry now than before.”

Xing Yan clasped his fingers, and they separated the card Crossing their fingers, both fingertips were cold and shaking.

Qin Fang said: “You really don’t know how to love. If you can’t learn, you will sentence us to countless death situations. I can’t just wait for you to sentence me to death.”

Xing Yan said: “Is it useless to talk now?”

“Yes, it is useless. You know better than me what this card is for. You gave it to me.” Qin Fang sat up, looked back at Xing Yan, and said, “As for what this card is for We…”

Xing Yan clasped his hand tightly and didn’t let go, his fingers turned white, Qin Fang raised his other hand, bent his knuckles and scratched his eyes, saying, “Let’s leave it to fate. If you learn it , know what is love and what is respect, then you can say it. In the middle, if you like someone else, it’s all your freedom – me too. Now there is no tie between us, and the dead end is yours to give Yes, try to figure out if you can go out on your own, and see if you can answer the two-person question yourself, and see if fate gives us a chance.”

Qin Fang took his hand out of Xing Yan’s hand . , took a deep look into Xing Yan’s eyes, sucked his nose and said, “The journey is smooth.”

Xing Yan lay on the spot and did not move.

Qin Fang gave him one last look.

After that, Qin Fang jumped down to the rain platform on the door, and then jumped directly to the ground with his hands on it. He often danced like this when he was a child, and the two movements were very smooth. The ash that was lying on the roof just now was covered in ashes. Qin Fang looked up and couldn’t see Xing Yan.

He didn’t stop there any longer and drove away.

Everything behind him is getting further and further away. Qin Fang suddenly remembered the first time he brought Xing Yan here. It was Xing Yan’s birthday that day. Qin Fang drank too much, lay on the chair in a daze, and said to Xing Yan – I want to give you a lot of things, I want to give you happiness, I want to make you happy, I want to give you all the good things you.

He wanted to give too much, Xing Yan couldn’t take it, he didn’t know how to deal with it. He grew up too lonely, he had not been loved and would not love.

Qin Fang glanced in the rearview mirror.

The courtyard door is open, everything in that courtyard is very old, but new things have been added to the old things, and there is a half-new dream of his youth.

[End of This Chapter]